If someone asks we're just friends(Connor Franta fanfic)

...what have we done?...

Finally alone..my parents went to the house where Conn and i went before...But good news for me-the school is back and because it has to bring back money fast it's a school for girls and boys now.I guess I'm cool with it,maybe I'll catch up with some of my old friends.I heard that my old boyfriend is gonna be there,Jimmy.But before i go,Conn wanted to throw me a goodbye for two years party...it's nice of him,but he invited some of his old girlfriends so i have to look super hot.And i did.I wore my shorts,sandals that go up to my knee and a cute tank top but not a really big one.Meeting them one by one they were steering...ahhh jealousy..love it.But one of them actually caught my eye.I didn't remember her name,i didn't care,but i saw that she wanted to get back with him so i pulled him so close i didn't think he could breathe,just to show that he is mine.I introduced him to some of my old boyfriends i could see that he was uncomfortable,but so was I he can take it.As time goes by,we separated and didn't see him for a while.When it was late,people already started to leave i was looking for Connor and at one point i couldn't believe what i saw.He was kissing another girl,the same one that i

was suspicious about.At first i thought it wasn't him,but as i was going closer i saw that it was him.I slapped him so hard i think he almost fell,well great he was drunk to.I went upstairs to my room and he just continued.As soon as i got in i fell on the floor.The felling of someone stabbing me and pulling the knife in and out at the same spot was there.My legs were shaking i knew i had to get out of there.I packed my bags and called the car that was supposed to take me to school tomorrow.In 15 min the car was there,i went down my window and into the car.When i went in that's when the emotions i tried to hide hit me.I heard my phone ring it was a private number.It was a text saying,, You saw him ha? Well,it's not even the half of it".And than in one point i showed no emotion.I felt empty.As soon as i saw the school i went out of the car,didn't say hello to anyone and just went into my room.K was there,i told her what happened and she just walked out of the room,saying she has something that will make me feel better.Few seconds later i saw my old boyfriend,Jimmy.I hugged him so thight we didn't say anything than but when we sat on the bed he said to me pulling my chin to face him:

-,,It will be ok i promise..Let's go to my room,my roommate is coming in two days so i have an empty room.Ok?"

i was just shaking my head and we went to his room.When we got there i saw this beautiful big room,and Jimmy brought out some drinks.We were just talking about all our favorite memories together,we had so much fun and we were scared we were going to fast so we broke up.One moment of silence i realized there was a beautiful boy infront of me,feeling the same passion between us as i was.I leaned foward kissing him softly which caused us to stop for a moment and the next thing i knew i was in his lap facing him,kissing him like there's no tomorrow. His warm breath was kissing my neck,his cold hands up my shirt unzipping my bra,and him saying,,  i never stopped loving and wanting you".When he said that i snapped out of my desire as fast as i could ran out of his room to go to mine.I curled up in a ball in the corner,crying and just repeating everything in my head saying,, What have we done?"