If someone asks we're just friends(Connor Franta fanfic)

I'm yours.

I decided not to go.I have to show him that I'm not going to come to him every time he wants me to.He didn't deserve it.After I made that decision I was just going around the house alone because Mike was still not coming.I heard somebody knocking on my bedroom door and I thought it was Mike so I didn't turn,I was looking at a mirror on the other side of the room.I've just bought a new purple dress for some party and didn't get to try it so without thinking I said

-"Like it? How does it look?"

-"You look just as beautiful as the day I left"

My heart stopped for a minute,I didn't have the courage to turn around because I recognized that voice...his voice.He came up behind me and slowly said

-"Look at us.What happened? I'm here with somebody I've never loved and your here with a totally different person.I thought that when I finally could see you that you would fall in my arms like before and everything would be fine."

I turned around with a millimeter away from eachother.

-"After everything..how could it be fine? How can I pretend nothing happened?"

-"You know that you can "

-"I can't Connor! I just can't! There's too much"

-"You say that.But I know how you feel"

-"Oh yeah? How do I feel?"

-"You kissed Mike because you wanted to make me jealous"

-"Why are you so sure?"

-"Well do you love him?" I didn't say anything

-"Please Ann tell me the answer if you say yes I'm walking out of that door and I'm never coming back"

I came closer to him just to look him in the eye:

-"I love Mike"

After all this time I saw his eyes full of tears.

-"You're lying,I know you you're lying"

And he went out.I just fell to the floor punching the side of the bed.What did I do to deserve this? I know he stil loves me,I know Mike loves me but I don't deserve eather one of them.I'm the one who's selfish here.

For a couple of hours I didn't move.I saw Mike's terrified face in front of me.He didn't know what was going on,because of the media he only knows Connor was here.

-"Ann are you ok?Did something happen?"

-"I don't deserve this,you, this house,this career it's too much for me"

-"Did Connor do this? I'm going to him only if you say so"

-"No,just be here with me,convince me to stay,that's all I'm asking"

-"Come here."

He sat next to me putting me in his lap,I put my head on his shoulder.

-"Whatever you do,wherever you go,know that I'm here and I love you." he kissed my forehead slightly wrapping his hands around me without a word,without a sound.

-"Come on,let's go to lunch it'll make you feel better"

I noded my head and he helped me fix my hair and make up,I was already wearing a dress.But then came the problem.The press wouldn't leave us alone.

-"Were you and Connor dating?"

"I have sources that say you  two had a house together because you were pregnant"

"Did he cheat with Amber before"

I don't get it..did he tell something on purpose? Did the slut say something? I didn't tell any of this to Mike so he is really confused.

Nothing hit me like one question.That one sentence broke my world,once I heard it I let Mike's hand go and went to the hotel he gave me, to confront him.He opened the door and I just screamed:

-"IS IT TRUE?"

-"Well,I told you that if you said you loved him I'm leaving"

-"Yeah,I know but I didn't think you would do this?"

-"Why not?"

-"You know what? I don't care..."

I then left FURIOUS.I entered the house and saw the invitation for the party and I saw Mike infront of me.I kissed him hard and jumped to him, wrapping my legs around his waist,he looked at me and said "You really want to do this?" without a word I smiled and kissed him again.We fell on the bed and he put his hands on my waist.He kissed my neck gently sucking it.I let out a slight moan as my hands were going through his soft,blond hair.He was kissing my stomach and came to me facing me, moving my hair from my face whispering "you're mine and I'm yours for tonight" he then moved his hand so my black as the night bra moving his fingers down my ice cold body.My body breaths,heart still beats but I'm not alive.This isn't me doing this.My brain wants it and my body wants it I'm just here to do it.You have no idea how badly I wanted and needed this.

If Connor can PROPOSE to Amber and send me an invitation to the proposal party,sure as hell I can do this.It's a good feeling being someone's leaving your body and soul in that person's hands..just for fun ;)