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Love is life and life is free
Take a ride on life with me
Free your mind and find your way
There will be- a brighter day
I don't know what it was about Erykah Badu's music but whenever I found myself in mind boggling situations I'd always resort to it. The soothing lyrics of one of her old school hits played on my iPod while I jogged the treadmill in the little home gym my father had put together years ago in the basement. I was too amped for Camille's wedding to be over with.
Maybe then, I'd stop worrying about my figure- I highly doubt it but there's nothing wrong with wishful thinking.
After leaving the bowling alley the other night, Jay promised he'd handle Nichole and apologized for her actions. Like I thought- he said she was over his place and had probably got my number out of his phone. He made it completely clear that he wasn't tied down to anyone and girlfriend-free but of course had been dating around.
Now even though that was completely normal I still didn't want to be bothered with him. Or so I thought.
For the past couple days I've managed to avoid his phone calls and messages but as much as I tried to fight the feeling off- I just couldn't stop thinking about him. Nights were the worst when I'd lye there trying to go to sleep and get that yearning feeling for a companion; just someone to hold me. That's when he'd come into mind. I'd think about the way he touched me, and how soft his lips were. I imagined the way he'd feel inside of me and wondered if he'd be any better than the rest.
It became apparent that I needed some dick in my life but not just any old dick.
Jay seemed like a freak and unlike some guys I've been involved with- he was older and more experienced. I'm sure he knew how to handle himself too and wasn't just all-talk. I'm pretty sure if I pursued the act, he would definitely be ready and willing but I honestly don't see that happening. I don't want to be just another thing for him to do like Nichole obviously was.
After burning a few more calories I stopped the treadmill and took a swig from my water bottle. I got off and removed the ear buds of my iPod before attempting to cool off. I was bent over touching my toes when I heard foot steps coming down the stairs. I didn't think anything of it until I heard a familiar voice mumbling something along the lines of "Damn."
I straightened my spine with the quickness and turned around to see Jay staring at me.
"Sup?"
"How-..What are you doing here?"
"I was around the neighborhood and came to talk to you. You've been pretty hard to get in contact with lately."
He chuckled at the bewildered expression on my face; automatically reading my mind. "Ya Moms let me in. She was on her way out when I pulled up. Told me she had cameras all through this place and if we did anything she wouldn't hesitate to track me down and beat my ass for disrespecting her house."
