Host of Imperfections

Chapter 27

Just two weeks after going back to school, Jay came to see me but so much for the frequent weekend visits like he promised.

I knew it was too good to be true because over a 3 month interval I only saw him that one time which was still in September.

The newness in our relationship had faded right before my eyes. I even regretted making it official at the particular time we did. It was pointless if I couldn't physically be with him.

Thanksgiving was the worst too. I only had a week to spare and not one day was he even in town to spend time with.

Not that she was to blame or anything but his grandmother had been recently diagnosed with some ill fatal disease that I could barely pronounce. He went back to New York during that time to be with his family especially since his mother was taking it so hard. He tried talking me into going with him but I denied the offer politely.

Call me selfish if you want but I didn't want the first time I met his family to be under those circumstances. Besides I wasn't even ready to be showcased in front of them so they could criticize me. Sure he'd had enough guts to do that with mine already but it was different with guys- especially the ones with single mothers- so instead of traveling up state with him I stayed in Houston until my little break was over and I returned to VA bitter as all hell.

I know things weren't going in my favor at all but it's not like I actually sat down and thought things over before I began doubting the strength of our relationship and what we could possibly have in the future together.

I was the type of person that wanted right then and now and with Jay being so far, I was starting to lose interest. Playing phone tag every other day wasn't that great either. I honestly don't know where the saying 'distance makes the heart grow fonder' came from because it was the complete opposite with me. I wasn't even trying to make it work since it appeared to me that he wasn't doing the same but in all actuality he was and I guess I was just purposely overlooking it.

Exactly a week after Thanksgiving, it was his turn to celebrate his birthday and just like he'd tried talking me into going to New York with him just a few days prior he tried to convince me to travel all the way back home. Expenses fully paid by him of course but I wasn't feeling it. That and I had a shitload of work due the following weeks. Finals, papers, projects, and presentations to prepare for by the time the semester ended. Winter break was RIGHT around the corner-three weeks to be exact- but for some reason he couldn't wait that long.

"Don't they tell you about all this shit in the beginning of the semester?" He harrumphed over the phone sounding a bit irritated with me. "Why'd you wait until now to do it?"

".....I work better under pressure. And why the hell would I start something that's not due until months later. You crazy.."

"That's your problem right there." He joked. "Slackin."

"Whatever, I get things done eventually." I laughed.

"Then I don't understand why you cant just bring it with you."

"Because! I'm not getting on that plane Jay so you can stop trying to bribe me. What difference will another 3 weeks make? It'll be just the same."

He scoffed. "No it wont- Birthday sex isn't the same if it's NOT your birthday anymore Bee." He sounded like one of those little kids dead set on trying to get their point across. I couldn't do anything but laugh.

"I'm mad that's the only thing you're worried about."

I heard a slight sigh and I already knew he was trying to think of a way to dig himself out of that hole. I cut him off before he took too long. "But listen...if it'll make you feel better I'll change all the clocks and calendars back for you."