Host of Imperfections

Chapter 25

Thursday- September 4th

9:52pm

It had been a week since I ran into Lyndall at the Galleria and unfortunately he was on my mind the very rare times I wasn't thinking about Jay. You know the usual naive thoughts. How things would be if we were still together or if I were to get back with him. Each time I'd curse myself for getting too deep in thought about his trifling ass.

I remember calling Kelly that night before going out with Tarja and telling her everything since she was so aware of our history together.

For some reason she thought the whole situation was hilarious. 'I swear he has a tracking device on you Bee. Seems like every time you get involved with someone else on a serious note, that nigga come out the wood works stirring shit up.'

He wasn't the only one at fault though because I had let him do it on many occasions. As much as I wanted to deny it I couldn't. She was more on point than I was. He played it real cool in the food court and I was actually shocked he hadn't asked me about my relationship status like he usually did.

I wouldn't be surprised if he'd managed to keep tabs on me through Will since I was away at school. Now that I think about it- whenever I did start talking to anyone new- I'd get a random call from Lyndall trying to be all friendly with me again until I got a new number about a year ago.

It's like he couldn't stand to see me with another guy. He'd have me right where he wanted me and like a dummy I'd believe all of his newfound wants to make us work and just as soon as things were going good for us they'd end up right down the drain again. It was like a game to him. Watch- if or whenever he did find out about Jay he'd be knockin mofo's over trynna get at me again.

I was too through with his child-like antics. I'm getting too old for that. Even if he had changed for good this time I wasn't going to risk anything. There was no way I could.

Here I was in the midst of getting whined and dined by the man of my dreams and dwelling on my past like a fool. In celebration of my birthday, Jay had taken me out to one of my favorite casual restaurants. I was in the middle of zoning out to the sound of silverware clinking against plates and tuning in on random conversations when our waitress came back to the table.

"Dessert?" She asked trying to ease more money out of us.

Even though I wanted to ask her, 'Does it LOOK like I want dessert right now?' I decided against it and smiled politely with a simple 'no' escaping my lips.

"You sure?" Jay asked still probing the question.

"I'm fine, thank you. Can you just bring the check out?"

Jay quirked his brow my way and smirked once she walked away. "You must be paying, huh?"

"No, I'm just ready to get out of here so you can give me my present." I said ridding my thoughts of the past and focusing on my future. Fcuk a Lyndall. Not to sound corny or anything but -Jay was all the man I needed.

"Oh well... we might as well stay here then."

Yeah right! The smile on my face faded and I pierced my eyes at him in disdain.

"I'm serious." he chuckled. "That trip to Cabo was your present."

Jay was all the man I needed. Uhm..Yes, I'd like to retract what I said a few seconds ago! ...I kid.

He better be lying.

The waitress came back with the little black folder with the bill in it and picked up our plates; leaving us alone again. I watched Jay divert his attention away from my face and stare at the receipt inside for longer than he probably had to.