Who would have known? //5sos//L.H//

5_Bullies

I spent the rest of the night in my room.
At 3 am I get a dm from Luke.
What am I supposed to say?
Luke:
Hey!
So will you be able to attend the concert?

Alex:
Hi.
Sry Luke , my parents can't drive me there and the buying an airplane ticket is too expensive.
I'm sry I really wanted to meet u guys and see you live.
Bye.

I turn around and fall asleep. I fell pieces inside me break. I promised myself I wouldn't get my hopes up. So why am I crying?

I see Shawn is still on so I text him.
Alex:
Hey!

Shawn:
Hi
So hru?

Alex:
I'm annoyed. u?

Shawn:
Better now. Why are u annoyed?

Okay , so he's in a good mood and flirty, so this conversation will go well.

Alex:
Uk the band I'm obsessed with?

Shawn:
Yeah, 5sos.
So what about it?

Alex:
So they have a concert in Michigan. I talked to them actually. And Luke said I was pretty!!
Okay so, I asked if they had show near by and the closest is in Michigan.I asked my parents but it's impossible to go.

Shawn:
What did Luke say?

Alex:
That I looked pretty. But I think he was only being nice.
I wish I could go.

Shawn:
Are u telling me so I feel bad for u and grow a freaking ticket of the ground?

He started losing his temper this, wasn't gonna end okay.

Alex:
No!
I just wanted to tell someone.just forget it goodnight.

Shawn:
Fuck off..

And that's how I fell asleep tears spilling tears on my pillow.
I should have known that he would lose it.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~                                                        (5/20/16)

I wake up at 11.
I stayed up yesterday till 5 wondering ,
why shawn is such an asshole and why I like him so much.

I open my phone and it's already filled up with messages.

Alissa asking me how I am.

Kate asking me if I had any plans.

Shawn saying I'm just annoying and that he is sorry.

The days goes on like always wake up , breakfast, lay in bed (thinking about my shitty life),lunch , also laying in bed then watching a movie.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~                                                  (5/21/16)            

The bus is mostly empty today.
Kate is in a bad mood so I prevent talking to her if it's not necessary.

I stand with the group.
5
4
3
2
1
And the insults start.

I know my friends love me,well I think they do.
But still , I'm always the target of their insults and mean comments .
About how dumb I am , how ugly , about how I'm going to die alone etc...
I usually just laugh along , even though it kills me sometimes. I just laugh along , hiding the tears building behind my eyes.

Classes are boring.
It's only basic review for the tests.
Before I step into the bus I over hear James and Matt talking.

Matt and James are the bullies in school. You know those two boys that go out of their way to make everyone miserable, well they are Ridgewood High's main bullies.

They start insulting me, about how I should die , because I'm worthless and the usual things bullies fill you up with.
They start to laugh, I flick them off and climb inside the bus , bitting my lips to prevent myself from crying.

I get home and run up to my room and hide in there crying till there are no more tears left.
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Hi guys!
It's a short chapter :-(
I'll try to write daily.
Plz comment I really want
to know what you think about the book!
Love you
❤❤❤❤
A.R