Who would have known? //5sos//L.H//

Chapter 34

"Alex I just don't want you to blame yourself okay. " I nod. Okay, now I know for sure it's not something I want to hear.

"Alex , I'm in love with you..."
                                              

'Alex I'm in love with you...'

The word is ringing in my ears. He doesn't mean it. Obviously he doesn't.

"Alex, I liked you since the moment I met you, but Luke told us all to back off. I wasn't willing to. I wanted to try and see if we could get somewhere. Then I saw how you like Luke. "
Was it that noticeable that I like Luke? I thought I was better at hiding it.

"Alex , you are a really bad actress. We aren't blind. I can't believe Luke couldn't tell you liked him at first. Okay, so when I saw that you like Luke I backed off. I didn't want to get in the way." I feel my stomach stir. "But tonight I really did call you because your dad asked me too. He then said to forget it after your aunts talked to him. Luke didn't know that I like you Alex."

He takes a deep breath and shakes his head.
"When I went inside the car he asked me. I told him about how your aunt told your dad they would wait for you. Then he asked me if I had feelings for you. I told him. When we first started the band we made a deal we would never keep things like that from each other. I told him how I liked you and all. I promised him that I would back off, he was okay with it..."

He let's go of my hand and sits on the couch, his elbows on his knees. Calum joins him and I follow sitting across from them. "We got out of the car and we were talking and he asked me if I ever tried anything. I didn't answer so he took it like a yes. He made me tell..." he rubs his face. Why does it look like he's embarrassed or scared or something. Something in his face tells me this is going to end bad.

"Alex I kissed you. Remember the 4th of July party?" I nod. There was a thing before the fireworks, where everything goes black and you kiss the person next to you. I thought I kissed Luke...

"Well, that night. I knew you would think it was Luke so I kissed you. I'm sorry. " I just nod. What can I say? I do feel mad , but also bad.

The girl that was self harming about no one loving her, breaks hearts....
The irony. And it's not the funny kind. Somehow I always hurt people. No matter what I do I always end up hurting them.

It's a matter if time I end up hurting Luke...

"Ash , I just can't... why did Luke punch you?"
He looks at Calum, rubbing his hands on his jeans. "Because I kissed you."
"Oh , okay. We can fix this when we get back home. Who's driving?"
Calum looks at me both of his eyebrows raised then looks back at Ash.

Ashton shrugs and stands up, turning the t.v off. "I'll drive." I nod. He cleans the mess he made and makes his way back to the living room.

                    

I suddenly feel cold fresh air hit me, I shiver. Something drops on my shoulders that warms me. I feel hands on me. I'm being lifted, I wrap my arms around the person. It's Ashton ,he smells like colon and sweat.

I hear a few whispers , the closing of a door and the opening of another. "What are you doing?"
"She feel asleep, I'm taking her inside." Ashton answers the other person. "Give her to me." The other person takes me and I wrap my arms around him to steady myself from falling.
The other person drops a kiss on my head. The smell of him filling me up. He smells like soap, the fresh ocean breeze and mountains. It's Luke.

I my wrap around him tightens . He pulls me closer to his chest , his warmth keeping me from the cold.

I hear shuffling around me , which I think are my parents asking questions. I guess we're going upstairs, because I feel the change of Luke's breathing. I feel bad , so I should just get down , but I'm unable to. I'm too tired and I'm enjoying this too much.

He places me in the bed, slowly . As if I was a fragile instrument willing to break at any sudden touch. Luke takes off my shoes and covers me with the sheets. Placing a soft kiss on my cheek.

"Luke , I'm sorry."
"Ash we'll talk about it tomorrow." He stands off the bed and the loneliness of the room is taking me in."Stay.." I whisper to Luke. He comes back and lays next to me , on his side. He's playing with strands of lose hair on my face. I just smile and push closer to him."You know you look so innocent when you sleep. I love it, I also love the way your eyes flutter, and the way your lips curl up from one side when you have a good dream...." I want to kiss him . I move closer to him until I can feel his skin against mine. I press my lips on his neck , the first place I found. He warps his arms around me , my head laying on his chest . The sound of his heartbeat, the lullaby that drifts me to sleep.

I know I'm desperately in love with him...

                                                                       

Luke's P.O.V

I hug her closer, her small body shaking with cold. Sometimes I wonder why she likes me. That she's way out of my league, she can have a million other boys, and she chose me. The thing is after being used for 5 years it gets hard to believe who really cares and who doesn't.

Moments like this I think I can tell she cares , but the insecure voice in the back of my head says otherwise.

I end up falling asleep next to her. Our hearts beating a lullaby.

I know I'm desperately in love with her...

                                            

I wake up to the sound of squeals. I open my eyes and I find everyone hitting pillows against each other. Alex is in a fight against Andrew. I take my pillow and stand between them.

"Your prince had awakened from his slumber" she giggles and I feel my heart shatter and rebuild itself a million times in my chest.
I lower myself a bit and pat on my shoulders. She understands and jumps over my shoulders. I hold on to her and she takes the pillows winning our way towards the door. Mike and Gwen follow us and we become the 'Fantastic Four'. Since Alex and Gwen are the only girls the rest of the 8 boys fight their way .

We run around the room, laughing hysterically.  Calum pushes me , dropping Alex and I onto the bed. I fall above her and she grunts at the sudden blow. I lock her down and kiss her.

She's still giggling, and I swear it makes me feel all tingly and weird inside.

"Okay, gross. Let's go down to breakfast" I stand up , taking Alex's hands to help her up. We follow Tony's command and head downstairs. We walk into the backyard and I find the table we had lunch in yesterday , filled with fruits, pancakes, toast , spreads and drinks.

I sit next to Alex and we have our breakfast. Gwen and Mike seem to be dropping kisses every once in a while .

The day goes in with hysterical laughter and sneaking kisses to Alex.

God , I want to give her all of me. Like no matter how much I give will never be enough.

I'm just in it too deep..

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