Who would have known? //5sos//L.H//

Chapter 40

~4 days later~
Luke's P.O.V

It's been 4 days and there are no signs of Alex waking up. I've been sleeping in the same position for 4 days , I haven't even changed. I feel like a Zombie. I haven't even eaten correctly. Like I'm just a corps waiting for my love to wake up.
The waiting room is piled with people. I didn't know Alex , knew so many people and all of them speak so highly of her.

"Luke" I turn around to see the man on the bed next to Alex's. He's in his 70s , has silver white hair and green faded eyes. His name is William and I learned that he lives alone and his wife died out of cancer a few years back. I hear him talking while I'm asleep or when him and Alex are alone. Anyways, they are changing her room today. "Aren't you tired? You haven't left that chair for 4 days." I look back at Alex's hand ,intertwined with mine and back at him." I can barely sleep with her next to me , I would loose it without her." He smiles and turns to the other side.

I stopped crying the second day. It's not that I wanted to , but I had no more tears left. The doctor says her physical injuries are better , but there is no news on the her brain condition.

There's a faint knock on the door and a nurse walks in. " We'll be taking her to her new room" I stand up and move my chair. Two nurses walk in and steady the bars around her. The push her out of the room and I wave William a goodbye and walk out , following Alex to her new private room.

They set her bed and remove the bars , I grab a chair and sit next to her , just like a did a few minutes ago. Suddenly, the machine starts buzzing like crazy, I press the emergency button, anxiously waiting for someone to come in. A bunch of nurses and her doctor burst in and run to see the problem. I step away giving them the space they need.

The doctor walks over to the machine connected to her heart , he waves the nurses and they take out a bunch of needles and they pull out a defibrillator (an electronic device that applies an electric shock to restore the rhythm of a fibrillating heart.) They inject the needles in her arms, the machine still buzzing like crazy.
The sound of her racing heart slows down, turning into small faint beats. The doctor takes a deep breath and smiles at the nurses.

The sound of the heartbeats slows down, the worried look returning to the doctors face. They charge the defibrillator and press it above her heart, her body jolting to the electrical impact.
Her cardiac rhythm getting close to a null. I start to panic. Alex is loosing...

They use the defibrillator again, this time her heart beating in a normal rate again. Tears blur my vision again. I'm loosing her. The nurses leave, the doctor stays behind and checks a few things before he leaves too. He pats my back and walks out of the door. It takes me a few minutes to realize that I'm still standing there like an idiot, while she's fading away right in front of me.

I walk over to her bed and lay next to her, I take her hand and put it on my chest, just above my heart. I can hear the doctor talking outside the door." She's fighting too hard. Her heart is not capable . If she doesn't improve in the next few days , it would be preferable to remove her from the machines. After a while , the oxygen will not get correctly to her brain and it will stop working. She'll just be a beating heart..." I stop listening after that. God I hope she can hear me.

"Alex , I'm sorry. I should've showed you how much you mean to me. And you were right, I should push the girls away it's just I .I promise when you wake up I'll buy you all the ice cream in the world and I'll take you to the fancy restaurant in town , and we'll go shopping at pink , because you love that place . Also , I'll watch the chick flicks you like and I won't laugh at you when you cry..." I smile at the memory of her watching a movie and crying. Tears are still flooding down my face. "Alex, I would do anything just to see you smile again. I can't believe I never told you this but I love you. Alex, I'm desperately in love with you. I called you sunshine, since the day I meet you because you lightened up my day. Alex, I was ready to jump of that bridge again. You are the only reason that I'm here. Please wake up Alex, I need you."
I'm sobbing, I can't control the short breaths, the pain inside me. I feel every piece inside me burn over and over again. Like salt on a wound.