Rina came round the following day with some food for us she could tell neither of us really wanted to talk so she didn't stay glen went and picked ruby up from his parents house while I rested seeing her again was heartbreaking and set me off crying again she came toddling over saying mamma to me I picked her trying my best not to let her know I was upset "you have a good time at grandma and grandad's sweetheart" I asked her "yeh mamma" she babbled to me she struggled out my arms to go play with her toys "I'm gonna warm up what rina made us" I told glen "I'll do it" glen told me "it's fine I need to keep busy you've not slept properly you must be exhausted" "I'm used to jet lag liv please let me do it you need to rest" "can we do it together I don't want to sit on my own" "yeh course" we went into the kitchen and warmed up what rina had sent I barely ate mine "you should eat more" "I can't I feel sick" "do you want me to go out and get you something" he asked "no glen I'm fine I'll try and have something later I'm gonna go bath ruby" "I'll do it" "glen stop fussing I can do things still I need to keep busy" "ok I'll wash up then" "I was hoping you'd offer" I told him he gave me a small smile I grabbed ruby and I gave her a bath watching her splash about and play with her toys broke my heart I'd already imagined what she would have been like as a big sister both of them daddy's girls and now that had been snatched away I didn't know how I'd recover from it I put ruby down to sleep after her bath and just sat and watched her for abit glen came in and made me go to bed he pulled me into his arms again neither of us saying anything I could feel his tears dropping onto my head I pulled away from him placing a kiss on his lips and pulling him into my arms to comfort him
