We'd been home for 2 months glen was in and out of the studio with the lads again I was spending lots of time with rina ever since she'd been with me at the hospital lila and ruby were playing together while we had a coffee "have you and glen thought about having another baby" she asked suddenly "no we've not mentioned it in fact today's my due date" "shit liv I'm so sorry" "I don't think glen even realises he never said anything this morning" "do you want another" "I don't know I don't know if I could do it again I'd be constantly scared why has he said something" I asked her "no it's just me wondering that's all" I eventually made my way home with ruby she toddled into the house "dada" she yelled running off into the kitchen glen picked her up "hey trouble where you been" he asked "out dada" he laughed at her "we've been to rina's" I told him "your home early" "yeh I couldn't concentrate at the studio" "why" I asked "you know why liv she'd have been due today" "I didn't think you'd remembered" "of course I remembered liv I thought I'd cook for us tonight" he told me putting ruby down as he was wriggling she ran off into the lounge glen pulled me into his arms "you ok" he asked "not really what about you" "not really" we stayed holding each other until ruby came running in with a doll "mama play dolly" she babbled "ok one minute ruby" I told her glen gave me a kiss and let me go I was sat on the floor playing with ruby when glen came in "foods ready" he told me I nodded "come on ruby teas ready" she flew up and ran into the kitchen I lifted her into her chair we both sat down at the table "liv I've been thinking" glen told me "would you want to try again for another baby" "what" I asked "another baby would you consider it" "dolly" ruby shouted "no dolly ruby eat your food" I told her "I can't believe your bringing it up today of all days glen" I told him standing up I threw my coat and converse on and walked out I needed space to think
