I was sat between glen and Callum at the table and Luke was sat at the side of Callum they seemed to be getting on well "you not eating anymore" glen asked "don't have much of an appetite these days" "your gonna need your strength on tour long hours and travelling" he told me "I know it's just the last thing on my mind at the moment" "want to talk about it" "talk about what" "it's obviously your grandad" I grabbed my glass of wine taking a big gulp "I can't talk about it" "why not" "it's too painful" "how are you gonna help him if your not dealing with it" I looked at him his face full of concern "I don't know how to begin dealing with it" "talking might help" he told me "you don't want to hear a strangers problems" "the offers there if you need it" I gave him a small smile "they seem to be getting on well" glen said about Luke and Callum "they do how long is luke gonna be on tour" I asked "he's on it for the whole thing" "at least they've someone there own age to talk to" I ordered another large glass of wine liking how the grief was pushed away for a short while after we'd all eaten we all separated some went to te bar me Callum glen and Luke made our way to the lift "dad can Callum come play Xbox for abit" Luke asked "it's up to Olivia" "if it's ok with you" I asked glen "ok just for an hour though" glen let them into his room and we went to my room I kicked my heels off glen was moving my photo album off the bed I snatched it off him "sorry" I said he didn't say anything I held it to me tears threatening to spill out "can I hug you" glen asked I gave a small nod as he pulled me into his arms I let out a sob as the tears flowed out he stroked my back letting me cry "maybe it's too soon for you to be working" he said "I've got to do it sometime" I told him pulling out of his arms and wiping my eyes "he had a brain tumour we thought he'd had a stroke and then his scans came back he was given 8 weeks to live he died 6 weeks later we bought him home to die I saw him die I sat with him for 4 hours after he died until the undertakers came that days in my head its like its on a constant loop" I told him "I bet it is Olivia you've been through so much I know we've only known each other for a few hours but you can talk to me whenever you want to" he told me we chatted for abit longer before glen went to go get Callum for me I sent Callum for a shower while I unpacked some more and then I went for a shower when he'd done we settled down in our beds to watch a film Callum was asleep within an hour so I switched the film off and snuck into the bathroom to drink myself numb
