That's What I Thought | s.m

Chapter Twelve

c h a p t e r  t w e l v e.
t h a t ' s  w h a t  i  t h o u g h t.
m e l o d y  r e a g a n.

Today is the day. The day that Shawn Mendes finally takes me out on a date. I haven't been out romantically since Dylan, we used to have the best dates, sitting by the beach, having a picnic, movie nights, and for our one year anniversary, he took me to this restaurant, ill have to admit, it was really fancy and expensive, but he insisted on making it special. it's crazy to think how times have changed.
I'm not sure if i'm ready to move on, but i can't stay at home forever, wallowing in my own self pity, growing old alone, if i even get that far, thinking realistically i mean.
Crawling out of my bed i went straight to the bathroom and took a shower, if i was going on a date i had to at least look presentable
I let the warm water roll down my back as i questioned myself as to why Shawn cared for me so much, more than anybody else ever had, and we'd only just met. Again, causing me to think back to when Dylan and I used to be like this. Going out on dates and when he surprised me with movie nights. But i can't hold on to the past.. Dylan and I are finished. 'He beat you Melody.' the voice in my head reminded me, 'he broke your heart and you have to let him go.'

Sighing, i turned the water off and got out of the shower, drying myself, i brushed my teeth and dried my long, brown hair.

Scrunching my face up in the mirror, i was torn between leaving my hair down, not to seem too fancy incase we were just going to a movie, or putting it into a bun to seem more elegant, and pretty.

I went with keeping it down, but curling it to make it seem like i'd made a bigger effort than i had. sitting down at my dresser, i pulled out my makeup and began putting it on. i'm not going to lie and say it wasn't difficult, because i haven't worn makeup since my parents passed away, except a little mascara now and then, but that was all.

Doing the best i could, i primed my face and put on foundation, concealer and powder. Using my contour kit, i chiseled my cheeks and put on a small amount of highlight on the high points of my face to make them glow. Going straight to eyebrows i filled them in, even though they hadn't been waxed in a year, i tried to make them look presentable. Using a cheap palette i bought a while ago, i chose to wear brown tones that were natural and eye catching at the same time, then swiping mascara on both my bottom and top lashes, leaving out the eyeliner. Grabbing my brown/nude lipstick i swiped it along my bottom and top lip, blotting to make sure no access was noted.

Staring in the mirror, i couldn't even recognize myself, i changed into a completely different person. i looked like i made an effort and i certainly felt much better because if it. No under eye bags, no tear stained cheeks, no spots or blemishes, nothing. and it made me feel.. pretty.

Walking over to my wardrobe i opened it and picked out a black denim jacket, with fir on the collar, and a plain, light pink blouse, grabbing my black jeans and black ankle boots, i put them on, adding earrings and a ring to make me look like i actually had money.

Looking in he mirror once more, i fixed my hair and tilted my head. My thighs were large and touched one another, and my blouse was flowing freely so it didn't compliment my round stomach. my double chin was contoured, but a small amount of hanging skin was seen up close. Shaking my head i sighed, knowing that after tonight, he probably wouldn't want to see me again. No doubt, he has an amazing body, muscles all over, and a six pack for everyone to swoon over. Making me wonder why, out of all the thin, naturally beautiful and confident girls at school, he chose the
one that can't even look herself in the mirror without pointing out a flaw. Always finding some reason to put herself down.

Looking away i grabbed my phone from my bedside table and checked the messages

(2) Unread Messages:
From Shawn:

Hey, are you excited for tonight?

To Shawn:

Yeah, very excited, thank you so much for taking me out. you really didn't have to
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He replied almost instantly, making me jump slightly at the 'PING' of my phone right after i'd set it down.
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I did, after everything you've been through, i can tell you need it :)
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Smiling slightly, my stomach was overwhelmed with butterflies, flying around excitedly, impatient on having to wait another hour to see him.
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That means so much to me, thank you Shawn..
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Anything to see you smile.
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You're so sweet!
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I try, haha, ill pick you up in 30 minutes, so be ready!!
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Don't forget it's the coffee shop! and i won't :)

Checking the recipient of the second message, i deleted it immediately, when seeing it was an unknown number, knowing it was Alex.

Waiting another 10 minutes, i grabbed my purse and a crisp twenty dollar bill, and shoved them into it, clasping it, and walking out of the door.

Walking with my headphones in, i suddenly stopped in my tracks when i saw somebody walking towards me, their face seemed familiar, and they seemed to be on their phone, looking all around them but at me. Panicking, i hastily hid behind a large bush that was beside me. making sure i was crouched down enough to go unseen.

As he walked past, i took in more of his features, his eyes were blue, similar to my fathers before he passed away, and his hair was covered with a perfectly knotted black hat, that was pulled down just below his ears.

"If i have to kill him i will! Get the damn girl!" he screamed at the other person over the phone, as he stopped on the spot listening to what they replied, as i was too far away all i heard was muffling from the other end, when he spoke again, "I will kill you personally if you fail to bring me that fucking girl. You have 48 hours. Get her." ending the call furiously, he looked left and right before jogging around the corner, making sure not to be seen.

Getting up from my place, i ran as fast as i could to the coffee shop, making sure he wasn't following me.

Who was that girl he was talking about? And why did he seem so familiar?

This chapter was fun to write, but kinda scary haha, what do you think?
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Until next time my beauties ♡
-L x