That's What I Thought | s.m

Chapter Twenty-Nine

Shawn Mendes.
It was as if my whole world crumbled in that moment. My girlfriend had lost her ability to walk, to run, to dance. How would she feel? I'm afraid to believe that she will never be able to accept it, that she'll convince herself that she's a burden because of her wheelchair.

But what if she doesn't make it? What if i'm left to dwell on the fact, that even if she was still alive, she wouldn't feel it. I know that sounds selfish of me, but i can't help but think, 'will I be able to handle it?'. She'd be so void of happiness, she wouldn't believe me when i told her i loved her.

But I love her too much to let her go, she means the world to me and for her to leave me, alone, back to where i was, i don't know what i'd do. I've found a strength in myself that i've never known, all because of her.

"Sir, i'm going to have to ask you to stay out here, she's going to need immediate surgery," the doctor states, before closing the door, preventing me from answering

"Hang in their Mel," i whispered, backing up and sitting on the chair closest to the door, alert at all times incase something went wrong or the doctors came to give me information on her well being.

"Hey," lifting my head from my hands, i looked up at the saddened expression Ian was holding

"Hey, what are you doing here?" i croaked, my throat dry from the fumes of the fire

"Andrew." he reminded me, "he's upstairs," using his index finger he gestured to the ceiling. Nodding, i slouched back in my chair and let out a huge sigh, one i've been holding in since i'd gotten here

"She's gonna be okay man, i promise," Ian reassured, placing his hand on my back and giving it a few taps.

"Don't make promises you can't keep," i shook my head and ran my hand through my hair

"Look Shawn, i know it's difficult seeing her like this, but you've got to remember that she's one of the strongest people we know. she loves you so much and i can't believe you're sitting here blaming yourself for all of this. This was not your fault. So do me a favour and go up to Andrew's room and show him and Harriet your support. The doctors say they can't do much more and it's up to him to keep fighting." Ian pressed

"But what about-" i started but he cut me off

"Ill wait here and ill call you if anything happens, please just do this, if not for me, for him." i could tell he needed a break, one of his closest friends was on his death bed and he couldn't do anything to save him. The least i could do was help him.

"Okay," i nodded before getting the ward and room number and walking up the stairs.

The hospital was quiet, i would of expected it to be busy at this time of the night, but it was nearly silent. Cleaning my hands with the sanitizer hung up on the wall, i pulled on the door of Andrew's ward, taking a deep breath and closing my eyes, i let it out, opening my eyes a minute later and making my way down the corridor, the smell of medicine lingering in my nose. Once i'd gotten to his room, my heart skipped a beat. I had an idea of what i expected him to look like but what i saw was extremely severe and much much worse.

His face was scratched and bleeding from the fall and his wound had also been bandaged over several times. His hands were bruised. Purple, red and black lining his knuckles.

"Shawn?" Harriet whimpered, her eyes were blotchy along with her tear stained cheeks, she looked a wreck. Walking over to her, she stood from her seat as i pulled her into a tight hug.

"How is he doing?" i asked once she's sat back down

"Not good, the doctors said he'd be like this for a while, but they can't do any more. It's up to him now." she sniffed, her eyes glazing over

"He'll come back, I know Andrew, he wouldn't leave you behind. He loves you too much," i tried to reassure her, taking a seat in the chair opposite her on the other side of the bed

"I hope so, i don't know what i'd do without him." she whispered, loud enough for me to hear

"Just have faith, it'll all be okay. i promise." i smiled slightly. wiping her eyes, she looked up at me with a sympathetic, yet painful look in her eyes

"Don't make promises you can't keep, Shawn."

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