Like A Butterfly

Chapter Twenty- Late Night Chat

-Your POV-
I finished brushing my teeth and was on my phone on the bed as Jungkook was taking a call in the backyard.

I was watching a YouTube video when Jungkook came back to my room.
I looked up at him realising I had to get off the bed and sleep on the uncomfortable ground.

"Ugh can you give me like a few more seconds? I just want to be comfortable for a bit long-"
I was interrupted when Jungkook lied down next to me on the bed.

"You can just sleep here if you like," he said, closing his eyes.
I got up, feeling my cheeks burning.
"No I'll just sleep on the floor.." I said, trying to get up.
Jungkook held onto my wrist.
"Relax- I don't plan on mating with an octopus," he said smirking.
"Oh my god! Shut up!" I said as Jungkook pushed my head down so I was lying down again.

There was an awkward silence so I decided to ask him the question that was in my head all this time.
"What happened today?"
"What do you mean?" Jungkook asked while looking at the ceiling.
"Why were you crying..?" I asked again.

Jungkook laughed.
"So you don't have to tell me anything but I have to tell you!?" he asked.
"No.. I-"
"I got kicked out," Jungkook interrupted while putting on a smile as if it wasn't a big deal.
"What!?" I asked surprised.

"Yeah.. Which is why I was drunk when I.. yeah.."
"Why?" I asked.
"Because of school.. Apparently I'm not trying as hard as I used to for the group.. The CEO was pissed and disappointed and he just told me to come back when I want to cooperate.." Jungkook said sighing.

I didn't know what to say.
That day when he was probably feeling like shit, I had made it worst by shouting at him and pushing him away.
I felt horrible as a person.

"I'm really sorry.." I mumbled, ashamed to speak up.
"Why are you sorry?" Jungkook asked.
"For shouting at you.. you know.. when you were drunk.." I managed.
"Oh. No! It's fine," Jungkook said smiling at me.
"No it isn't. I was a shitty person," I answered.

Jungkook just kept staring at the ceiling and I could tell he was pretending he was fine.
"Jungkook.." I said, wanting to ask one more question that was bugging me, "Why did you come to me?"
Jungkook looked confused.
"Out of all the people in the world that you know, why did you come to me for help?" I asked.

Jungkook looked embarrassed.
"Do I have to tell you?" he asked.
"Well yeah.." I answered.
"Well I don't know Y/N.. I think you're the only person that I can lean on at this point," Jungkook answered.
"What..?" I asked, confused.

"I'm the closest with the 6 members obviously, but since I couldn't go to them- because I got kicked out, I had to rely on outside friends.." Jungkook explained.
"Oh," I said.
"Out of everyone I think you seemed the realest."

I froze.
The realest.
No- that was never something someone said to me.
Like Amanda, everyone called me fake, attention- seeker, etc.
Real was a word no one used to describe me..

I was lost in thought- thinking of all the things people did to me when Jungkook asked me a question.
"Y/N- why do you hate being home alone?"
I got nervous.
"What do you mean!?" I said, my voice going a lot more higher than intended.
"Y/N I'm not stupid. Tell me," Jungkook said.

I didn't want to tell him of the incident.
All that was going to do was make him join them- all the other people.
So I decided to tell him briefly- not too much detail but enough to make him understand.

"There.. was an incident last year," I started, "I really don't want to go into too much detail on what happened because it's something I don't want to remember but.. I was home alone. I think- I think it's just a trauma.."
When I finished, Jungkook finally stopped looking at the ceiling and looked me in the eyes.

"Are you serious?" he said worried, "You should've told me earlier- I would've done something to help!"
I looked down, "No.. I don't think anyone can."
"Y/N.. Aren't your parents gone? Are you sure you're okay?" Jungkook asked still looking intensely at me.
"Well.. yeah I guess," I answered.
"If anything happens you can just call me! Even if you feel slightly un-"

Without even myself knowing, I reached forward and embraced Jungkook in a big hug.

"Stop worrying so much about me.. You need caring too."