Like A Butterfly

Chapter Twenty Five- Call

-Your POV-
It was a Tuesday and that meant to I had to go to school again.
I had missed yesterday's lesson so I definitely had to catch up today.

I arrived at school early as always and sat down.
Amanda was eyeing me with a glare as I looked away.

"Y/N are you okay?" Sam asked from next to me.
"Um yeah? Why?" I answered.
"Well you weren't here yesterday and you're usually here every day.."
"Oh I had an occasion.." I said smiling.

Jungkook came in and instantly I felt a mixed up feeling in my stomach.
He gave me a brief smile and went to his desk.

I felt guilty- like I was tricking him.
But this had to be done..

Thanks to our chat we had before, Jungkook seemed to be giving me more space at school.

Soon the day ended and I went to the study room and started to study.
I felt nervous as I didn't know if Jungkook would come today or not.

"Hey," Jungkook said as he walked inside and got ready to study.
I instantly felt regret in coming to the study room.
I knew he was going to come..
Now being with Jungkook again, I might get moved by him and not go..

"Hey," I replied and took out my earphones.
I put them on and listened to music pretending that nothing was wrong.

-Jungkook's POV-
The earphones. Y/N had taken out the earphones that was used to distance us and was using them again.

This time I didn't stop her.
I knew something was wrong and the last thing I wanted to do was to ruin everything.

Why was having a friendship with Y/N so complicating?
Maybe.. maybe she doesn't want to be my friend and I'm forcing her to talk to me.. Maybe I should just leave her alone.

That's when I decided that I would ask the CEO to make me a study room..
It was for the best.
But I'll ask him next week.
Why? Because I need the time to see her before completely being 'strangers' again.

The rest night, we studied quietly and didn't make any noise.

-Your POV-
I couldn't deal with the tension and awkwardness in the room as it was distracting my studying.
I looked at the clock and saw it was 11.

I stood up and packed up to go.
"Are you going already?" Jungkook asked quietly.
"Uhh.. yeah," I answered.
"It's only 10 by the way," he said as I walked out.

I stopped right outside the door.
For some reason my heart felt like it was tearing apart.
I felt tears in my eyes and I couldn't explain why.

I breathed in, filling my lungs with oxygen in order to try and calm myself down.
Then I started walking to the bus stop.
I felt so alone and for once in a really long time, I wanted my parents to be home.
Even though I don't talk to them, knowing that they're there gave me comfort.

But they weren't and I already knew.

The next day, I went to school a bit late in order to avoid the whole class.
Thanks to Jungkook, staying home alone didn't seem as scary to me anymore.
It was still scary to me but I could bare it if I tried.

When I arrived, I realised Jungkook wasn't there.
Lately there seemed to be a lot of days where either one of us skipped school.

The lesson was like always- boring.
When school ended I decided not to go to the study room.
I felt as if memories were lingering and clinging onto the walls of that room.
I wasn't leaving until next month but I wanted to drop all ties quickly to make it less difficult when I left.

I was on the bus when I got a call.
Jungkook.
I didn't know if I wanted to answer or not and my finger was hovering over the accept button.
I finally caught enough courage and accepted, putting the phone to my ear.

"You actually answered?" Jungkook asked.
"Pfft obviously," I answered, acting as if nothing was going on.
"I'll just get to the point since you hate wasting time," Jungkook said emphasising the word 'hate', "I called for advice."
"Advice?" I answered confused, "Why do you need advice from me?"

"Well because all my friends are famous and not... normal," Jungkook answered.
I laughed, "Sounds like someone is bragging."
Jungkook laughed as a reply.
"What's the advice you want?"
"What do you do if your friend is being the biggest dickhead in the entire world and all you want to do is leave their ass?" he asked without breathing.

"I don't know.. I've never been in that situation before," I replied.
"Okay, then what should I do if I can sense someone is going to leave me?" he asked and I instantly felt guilt.
I didn't reply.
"Have you experienced that before? When a close friend leaves you for no reason or a misunderstanding?"

Instant memories of Mina sliced through me like a blade.
That painful memory was something I didn't ever want to think of.

"Yeah..." I mumbled.
"Well it can't be me right?" he laughed.
"Nah.. it's Mina.." the words blurred out of my mouth and I instantly felt regret.
"Fuck sorry. I need to go now- bye." I said then ended the call.