The Flight
*Jessie*
I was sat on the Flight and boy it did not feel good, I couldn’t even see Danny’s car from the run way. Knowing now that I would not see or touch my family for a month killed me. Just sitting here and thinking of it made it really hit home and that’s what I didn’t want it to do. I cried but hid my face so that Holly Clair and Alisha couldn’t see. My manager was on the phone as he still had signal on the floor…obviously. I know that the girls knew this was going to be hard for me and I know that they missed their families too but they’ve both left there’s for more than a week. Well Holly hasn’t left Lily for more than that but she has done with Harry. The seat belt sign went on and I did as it showed I know that no one sat next to me because they know I needed to be alone right now. What really confused me was that Holly and Clair didn’t look in the slightest bit sad. Maybe it was just me who wore their heart on their sleeve to much…oh I don’t know. Then it hit me there was no turning back now as the plane jilted upwards and we took off. I hated flying as it was and now I had to do it without Danny and without my girls. I had so much stress in my head right now I had the stress of flying the stress of not having my family and the stress about not having time to go see my sister go through the last of her chemo. This was her last and I wasn’t there like I promised but Danny promised to be and he said he would take the girls with him; they seem to calm her right down. What if I went to LA and couldn’t do anything productive because my head was too far all over the place. What happens then I've wasted Claude’s time I don’t want to do that because getting time in the studio with Claude is like gold dust. How much right now I wanted a hold from Dan was crazy I need him by my side in this next 8 hours because flying is one of my biggest fears.
Holly: you ok Jess?
I heard Holly say through the silence the plane had come accustom to. I just shakily nodded my head, causing her to undo her seat belt and walk over to me and sit next to me. She wrapped her arms around me and hugged me so tight. She knows that when Dan’s not here on flights I freak out. I know Holly and Clair were there for me before I even met Dan but I feel 100% safe in Dan’s arms not saying that I don’t feel safe with Holly or Clair it’s just Dan’s there to protect me he’s there to hold me when I get scared.
Jessie: I'm scared Hol….
I managed to stutter out amongst all the tears I was producing and the shakes my body was making me do.
Holly: Jess there is no need to be scared me and Clair are here to hold your hand, even when Dan isn’t. yes this next two weeks are going to be tough but we have each other when it all becomes too much.
Clair: I second that
Holly: exactly we are all here for you
Jessie: I just want ‘them’ is that too much to ask?
Holly: it must be seen as we cant have them and it sucks but the girls and Danny will be fine
Jessie: I know they will be fine, but that doesn’t stop me missing them. I miss them when their asleep and now I have to go a month with different time zones and not seeing them. It’s gunna break me
Clair: we know Jess we know but it’s just something you have to do we have to do this month away and then you can go home and be with them it will be ok you will be ok you have us. To cry to. We have been that shoulder to cry on ever since the day the three of us met.
Jessie: I know you are and have been I love you girls so much you’re like my sisters. And you both know that. My heart just aches I feel bad enough for leaving Dan and the girls and now I feel even worse because I'm missing Hannah’s last treatment on Saturday when I promised her I wouldn’t let her hand go. I mean what kind of sick person promises there ill sister that and then breaks it.
I was now in floods of tears as reality hit me with Hannah I feel so fucking bad it’s unreal
Holly: Jessica O’Donoghue shut up! You know Hannah told you to carry on and go she knows you had no other choice she loves you and she knows that if you could have stayed you would have. And as for the girls and Danny they miss you so much as well but when you’re in that recording room you’ll be fine just write what your feeling and then you can send them all the links to see if they like what they are hearing, so they can share this time with you just down the phone or on Skype, it may not be the same but it’s better than no contact and with you talking to them constantly it will be fine
Jessie: that’s Girls you always know how to put a smile on my face thank you I love you two so much
Clair: love ya too sis
Holly: sisters forever
Just by what Holly and Clair saying that stuff made me realise, even if it was a little bit that it was going to be ok even if the girls and Danny wasn’t there they would be and I would still have Skype and phone calls every day with them if nothing else…
A/N
hello guys what your thoughts on a sequel then?
