*Jessie*
Me and Dan both took a deep breath as we walked out of the car park hand in hand. Here it is the paps were doubling by the minute the flash in our eyes were enough to make us look down. I just kept replaying what Danny had said before in my head ' this is our day if they wanna take pictures let them, this is our time' I had to trust that and I do I trust Danny and everyone knows it. It was still only like 10 in the morning so Danny whispered to me to tell me we were going to the cafe in the mall it was one where we could hide away at the back which I was more than happy with, believe me. It took us half hour to walk there with all the paps gathering us, without the paps it would only take 10 minutes, that's how much paps slow up your day. A lot. We got In the door and went to the back of the cafe, lucky they aren't aloud in, thank god. I huffed as I sat down and just started to register what they were saying, exactly what I said they would about being bad parents. Once again I had to listen to what Danny had said to me because deep down I knew he was right and I was just being me in worrying about it all too much. He took my hand and rubbed it with his thumb, I can hide from Danny what I was feeling because he just new me to well he new me better than I knew myself, he could read me like a book. He gave me that sweet smile that he did when he knew I was feeling down, he of course was the one to break the silence as I was staring straight at the left over glass on the table from the people before.
Danny: stop it Jess
Danny spoke in a quite tone but I know what he was saying wasn't in a bad way it was a calm way to tell me to stop beating myself up about it.
Jessie: I can't, Dan, it still gets me
Danny: they are just nosy pricks that have nothing better to do so come and follow us for a living Jess. Me and you both know the girls can't possibly be with us every second of every day. We need our time as well Jess we need the time just us two, if we aren't entitled to that then I wanna know why, because every other parent on the this planet is aloud so Jessica don't do this to yourself we are the best parents we could be especially in our situation with the careers and everything.
Jessie: I know I just worry that when the girls get older they will look back at papers or go on the internet and think ' is it true did they really leave us all the time' I don't want that I want them to love us and respect us. I'm just scared that the one thing I always wanted ever since I was a kid could be broken because of the lifestyle I live. I wanted the husband I could come home two and cry too if I needed it check I have that I wanted the children that I would look to and think I'm proud they are proud of me check..at the moment I wanted the big career in the public eye check.. I wanted that stable family unit that everything would be fine I have all of those things at the moment. I guess I never thought it would be this hard for us to not be harassed even a year after we had the girls.
Danny: oh baby girl, do your saying your upset today because your scared of what the girls might read in years to come? No baby because they will grow up around the lifestyle they will know by the time they can go on the internet that the people who take picture make up shit. We said from day one we'd be honest with them about what our life's intail, and not Jess they won't look down on us because this will be normal to them they live you more than words can describe, do you know how much they cried when you were ill and when I was ill for that matter, they love us Jess the really do. I never thought I'd be a good dad, because of how good my dad was to me but you made me see that maybe all that was possible, all those sleepless nights I had when you were pregnant because I thought they'd hate me.. You made me think 'oh no wait Dan this will be ok' and by the way they act around me I know they love me and I know that I make them happy because the faces I pall at them to make them laugh works the times I tickle them and I hear them giggle. The times I live for I like when me and you are lying on the front room floor messing around with Rosie and Shaya those moments out family Jess. They are what we made they are part of us half me and half you they our one creation I'm not afraid to say I'm proud of because they are 'ours' and I love you and them more than anything on this planet.
The words Danny was saying started to sink in and my eyes were no longer holding back the tears that had been building up since he started talking. He reached over and wiped my eyes and when all my years were almost gone I looked him in the eye. I think it's honest time for the O'Donoghues. I held his hand again after we had order drinks and something to eat. I glared into his chocolate brown eyes and started to speak once again....
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Hello guys awh Janny moments :')
