Imagine If....

Even the Best fell down Sometimes...

Despite the title, this Imagine is actually based off of the song 'Fix You' by Coldplay. I couldn't decide between this one or Save the Last Dance for Me, so you're getting both :D Anyways, enjoy! 

~Trigger Warning for this imagine just to be on the safe side. Be cautious when reading this!~

You stood on the edge of the bridge, looking into the dark water below you. The sky had long turned into darkness. The lights that normally lit up the bridge seemed to be malfunctioning that night, further surrounding you in darkness. Which was a good thing. If you were able to see yourself, you didn't know if you'd be able to go through with what you were going to do, and despite what the very few people in your life may think, you couldn't do it anymore, not without him.

James was your fiance since last month anyways. Before that, the two of you had been dating for several years. You guys had met when as a forensic investigator, he was an EMT at the scene. The rest was history. A few weeks ago, James was out picking up a dead body they had found at a local drugstore. As he was picking up the body, both he and his partner were ambushed by the killer who came back. The two of them never made it to the hospital.

Since you got the call two weeks ago, there's been an empty hole inside of you. Why wouldn't there be? The man you thought you were going to spend the rest of your life with was now dead. James was the other half of you. You knew that deep down, you wouldn't ever be able to replace him, and you weren't sure you ever wanted to. 

Taking a deep breath, you continued to look down. The waves below you began crashing together. It was the only sound that filled the otherwise silent night. This was it, you were going to do it.

"I'll see you soon James," You mumbled, looking up into the sky above. You bent your knees, prepared to jump. Bright lights that began shining on you stopped you from jumping. With a glance to the right, you saw a car heading down the bridge towards you. You watched as the car screeched to a stop.

Someone proceeded to get out of the car, leaving their headlights on and their door wide open. A man with bright red hair came closer towards you cautiously, not sure what to do. Then again, if you were driving down the road and saw someone about to kill themselves, you wouldn't know what to do either. When the man got closer towards you, you turned your eyes back on the water.

"Hey, what's your name?" He asked, his voice calm and collected.

"Y/N.."

"My name's Mark. Y/N, that's a beautiful name."

"In case you haven't noticed, I'm not exactly in the mood to be complimented." Your voice came out dry and sarcastic. Still, you heard Mark chuckle behind you.

"I'd ask you what you're doing out here at this time of night but I think I already know the answer to that question. So instead, I'll ask you- what's going on?"

"Don't you mean what's not going on anymore?" The lack of emotion in your voice would have shocked you a few months ago. Now, it was just an everyday thing.

"Any chance I can get you to stop being so cryptic with me?" When you didn't respond, Mark chuckled slightly. "I'm going to take that as a no. I'm sure there's something going on in your life."

"Not since James died." Tears started streaming down your face at the simple mention of his name.

"Who was James?"

"James is- was my fiance. He died a few weeks ago." There wasn't a response from Mark for the longest time. Just as you were thinking he had walked off, you heard footsteps coming closer towards you. When the footsteps were directly behind you, you heard some sort of shuffling. A quick glance to your right and you saw Mark climbing up onto the bridge next to you. What the hell was this guy doing?

You tore your eyes off the water below you to stare at the guy next to you. There must have been a bugged out look in your eyes because Mark glanced over and gave you an incredulous look. "What, I've heard this bridge get's an amazing view. Figured I should check it out while I'm here." There were a few seconds of silence before Mark cleared his throat.

"I'm just a stranger here, so you don't have to listen to me. That feeling inside of you? That feeling of desolation and abandonment? That, Y/N, is normal. I would be worried if you didn't feel the way you're feeling." 

"I know it feels like your love for James was just a waste of time. Why love them so deep and so much just for them to be taken away from you? I know this is probably the last thing you want hear right now but I know what it's like. After my father died a few years back, I was-" Mark paused to take a breath. "I was a wreck. I felt that all the emotion that I felt towards him was just a waste of time seeing that I didn't get to spend as much time with him as I could."

"I'm going to tell you something a good friend of mine Leah told me after my dad died. I know it feels like that if you let James go, you'll be erasing him from your life. You feel that your nothing without him. But Y/N, you were your own person before you met him and damn it you can do it again. I know you're strong, as I'm sure a ton of other people know, but you'll never be able to prove to everybody what you're really worth if you don't try." For the first time in what seemed like ages, clarity swept into your mind. Instead of it being bogged down with the fact that James is no longer here, it seemed as if rays of sunshine were shining through.

Mark carefully got off the bridge and back onto the road. "Why don't you come down and start showing people what Y/N is really worth." After a few seconds of deliberation, you accepted the hand that was stretched out towards you. With the help of Mark, you got down off the bridge.

With your hands still intertwined, Mark began pulling you towards his car. "Let me buy you a decent meal. Gives you the chance to show me who Y/N really is."

As the two of you walked to his car, the lights that lined the bridge turned on. It seemed as if a warm glow now surrounded you.

Who knows, maybe these lights would guide you home.

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