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24 | both?

I walked into Dax's room first. He was already awoken and Amara sitting by his side. They both were laughing.

"Am I interrupting?" I say.

They both turned and shook their heads. "Nah. You're not." said Amara who was getting up. "I need to go home. Stay with Dax till he closes his eyes."

I opened my mouth but she swept past me and out the door. It was only Dax and I.

"I'm sorry." He said. He didn't meet my eyes. "I'm sorry for doing that to you..."

"Don't," I say, a little bit louder. I walked to him, slowly. "It was never your fault. You never started and it was his fault for surging into your body with no permission." I say. "So don't ever blame what happened on you." I sat down and sighed. "It's lonely to be a Half. All you see are Pures. There are no Halfs like me. I want to see more, not only vampire and wolves but human mixed."

"I get what you're saying." Silence slipped in and Dax began. "Breeze, can I tell you this?"

I nod. "Sure, anything. I'm all ears."

He took a deep breath and exhaled. "I'm... In love with someone else." He said.

I didn't get mad. I didn't get sad. I didn't feel anything. I just wondered what Amara felt or if Dax told Amara. "Did you tell Amara?"

He nodded. "Yeah. She understands, too. She's been noticing I kept distancing from her." He curled his lip. "But I'm in love with Jessica Winters."

"Incredible. You're in love with a human." I say.

"I'm not sure if that's sarcasm." sad Dax, raising his eyebrow.

I shook my head and a smile appeared. "No, it's not. It's just incredible to hear someone who's not in love with a person who's their own kind. Human, wolves, vampires, and a Half."

"But I noticed that you've changed a lot since Jurian." He said. He propped on his elbow and grinned.

"What do you mean?" I ask.

"My goodness, you are so oblivious. You've been showing giddiness and other happy emotions. Like right now, you're smiling." He pointed at me.

I bit my lip. "Yeah. I guess."

"And another thing that you're oblivious about is that you don't even know who likes you." He yawned.

"Who?" I ask.

He sighed. "Kyran Knight and Jurian Stone, of course."

"Pfft. I don't know if I should be laughing, but," I wagged my finger, "it's so not true."

"Think, Breeze. Use that brain of yours!" He snuggled into the covers. Memories of them both came to mind. I almost believed it but I denied it.

"Such nonsense. Kyran is just being nice and wanting forgiveness and Jurian is putting up an act. Like, come one. He's the Alpha's son so he basically needs to be nice to everyone."

Dax shrugged. "Okay, fine. But what about you, then?"

I thought again. Whenever Jurian touches me, butterflies happen in my stomach and my heart beats twice as fast. But with Kyran... I'm not sure. Sure, there were some times where my heart had raced for him but those were only minor moments.

"Nope. I'm a mere Half and no one can ever be with a Half like me."

"If that's what you think, sure." He yawned again.

I got up and walked towards the door. "Get some rest."

I closed the door behind me and closed my eyes. Tch. "Likes. Sure." My eyes glanced at Jurian's door. Jurian...

The memory of what happened replayed in my head. I want to keep on believing that it's an act of being the Alpha's son, but it's just too damn real.

I slowly reached for the door handle. It clicked when I turned it and I pushed it open. Jurian was seated up and he's drawing something on his notepad.

" ...Hey." I say.

His head snapped up. "Oh, hi!" He shuts the notebook and hides it under his blanket. I walked towards him, rubbing my arms.

"So . . . What were you doing just now?" I ask, my voice getting quiet.

"Oh, just some sketches."

I nod once and sat on the edge of the bed. Silence filled in. I was actually glad that it did, but it made it more awkward.

"I feel like this is my fault," I blurt. "I'm sorry."

"It's not your fault I-"

"But it is," my voice raised. "You didn't have to come and take the bullet. You should've just let me die since I'm the last Half left. I'll be the extinction." I avoided his gaze. I am so ashamed, embarrassed, guilty...and even more ashamed. What'll happen if Jurian's dad hear this?

"I wanted to, Breeze." he said. "I was protecting you."

"Yeah, well, it's not like you're going to do that till the day you die." I told him. "Honestly, can you drop the shitty act? It's just so obvious that you're putting on an act and doing this and that for me." I got on my feet and paced. "Just act like you are to me. Everyone is after me. Why? Because I'm a Half. They want me to disappear and you're in way of it and and-" I stopped and covered my face. "I don't even know what I'm saying right now."

"Disappear? Okay, first of all, this all 'act' thing that you're blabbering about is not even real. Second, in the way? How the hell am I in the way of you disappearing? I'm just simply protecting you because-"

"Oh, because you pity me?"

He shook his head and let's out a sigh. "Why do you want to disappear?"

I threw my hands up. "Because everyone wants me to! I'm doing it as they wish."

"What if I don't want you to disappear?!" He shouts. He winced and touched his side.

"Then I'll just make you want me to disappear." I finally said. I licked my lips and covered my face again. I feel like crying for some reason and I don't even know why.

"What if you failed?" He asks. I peeked through my fingers to look at him. His pained expression was all I see. "What if you never got me to want you to disappear? What will you do next?"

I bit my lip. My hands fell and I sniffed. I shook my head and I seriously feel that my sobs are gonna come. "I'll just... I'll..." I couldn't say anything.

Tears trickled down and I panicked. I don't want him to see my foolish crying. I don't even know why I'm crying anyways.