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35 | was it you?

"Breeze? It's like midnight now. What are you doing here?" Jurian asked sleepily.

I barged in. When I barged in, I bumped his shoulder.

"Whoa, is something the matter?" asked Jurian, closing the door.

I clenched my fist then unclench them. I inhaled then exhaled. I turned to him.

I gulped. "Was it you?"

He furrowed his brows. "What do you mean?"

"Was it you who was suppose to seduce me?" I said slowly.

He licked his lips then looked away and looked back.

Please don't let it be true.

"Was it you who was suppose to get me beheaded?" I ask.

He didn't answer. It was true. I couldn't believe it.

He reached out to grabbed my hand. "Breeze I-"

I jerked away from him. "So it's true. I was your mission and you were following the plan."

"No I-" He sighed. "I was protecting you."

"Protect?" I boom. "What do you mean protect? Becoming close to me so I can be beheaded?!"

"No. I wasn't going to do that." He said.

"Is that why you asked me to be your girlfriend? What about the k-kiss? Was that part of the plan, too?" Tears were coming so blinked them away.

He shook his head. "No, that was sincere - my feelings are sincere, too."

I shook my head. "I believed you. I trusted you. You... You were my mate! Is that fake, too?"

"The mate thing can never be fake." said Jurian. "But I didn't want you to be beheaded. I was protecting you from my dad."

"You knew something about my family, didn't you?" I changed the subject.

He sighed. "Yes, but-"

"Tell me." I said.

"I found out where they have been living and reached out to them. But they fled before I can even visit them." explained Jurian.

"When was that?"

He ran his fingers through his hair. He avoided my look. "October."

"October?! You knew that I was desperate to find them! But you kept it from me? Me. Wow." I said furiously.

"I know I'm sorry but... I'm sorry." He apologized.

I sighed deeply. "Let me ask you this."

He looks at me and gulped. We were still in the dark but we can see each other.

"When you met me... Did you want me to be beheaded?" I swallowed back my sobs.

"Breeze..." exasperated Jurian.

"Answer the question." I demand.

He sighed and ran both hands through his head. "Yes."

A tear slid down my cheek.

"But not anymore. Ever since I-" Jurian tried to fix it but he won't be able to.

"Don't," I whispered. "This is all I need."

I walked past him. He reached to grabbed my hand but withdrew it.

"I'm sorry," he whispers.

I wiped my eyes and walked out.

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Once I reached my bed I sobbed onto my pillow. He wanted me to be beheaded. He wanted me to be beheaded. He... He wanted me to be beheaded. He seduced me... Used me... Kissed me... I was so blind. Why didn't I push him away when he was getting close?

My heart shattered.