From The Heart

Story About A Dear Friend

I recently encountered a new friend through another sweet kind amazing friend. It started with taking her flip phone just to tease this boy who i had soon found out lived far away from New York as I wished. At first it started with silly messages like: "Hi~Charlie... p.s. not a boy" and eventually it grew to things like heartfelt threats like "Don't make me get on the next flight too ______________. ~Charlie girl"

Through all that time i knew there were issues with this boy but they have never defined him to me. His kind, caring personality did. Eventually, after months of teasing and befriending i finally snatched his number from the girl. I texted him and he was not trusting at first, definitely didn't trust the hell outta some random girl he had never met in person. The thing was as time went on little things were figured out through observation and words and little actions and phrases that he and the girl he is hopelessly in love with had said. I had been able to connect the dots and off sets the gut feelings i usually got about people. I could detect the type of people they were. 

For example, I could tell when it was a bad man who killed before or a child molester in the area, and my mom always told me to, "You better off safe then sorry, and that gut of yours is better then your heart and head in these type of situations." She also hugged me and pulled out her phone picking my tiny six year old body up onto her hip and checked her phone on the sex offenders. I was right and she got us out of there quickly. She had told me when i got home, "My baby, always remember this because you will know when there is danger most of the time, but you will be able to tell the good from the bad using pure instinct." 

I looked up nodding my six year old head. The point is my gut instinct is more accurate than anything. She said i could tell good from the bad and the thing is my friend that everything you've done bad, every single mistake or slip-up, doesn't define you. it makes you better because we are only human and we learn as we go.

Your personality is unlike one I've met and that makes you unique. I know you think that you're a bad person but you are not. Yes, you've made bad choices, and made mistakes.  But what you need is to learn to love yourself for overcoming those things. Your personality was all i needed to get to know and I did. When i learned your personality i could sense many things, things i have faced all before and am still facing like insecurities, about me and my actions. 

You tell me often enough you are stubborn, well you have met your match because so am I and i swear that i will keep making you believe you are perfect, it may take years or months. But, i promise you i will help, be there, even though i love 11 hours and 23 or so minutes away i will still continue to help you. For every flaw you name, i will counter it with a perfection. Every negative connotation that leaves your mouth a positive connotation will leave mine.

You need to see how amazing, kind, funny, protective, caring you really are and i will be there to help. That is my pinky promise, my friend.

May 5th, 2016

11:18 pm