The Death of Me | A mafia story

Chapter 13 - Broken Promises

Alex's POV

Life is playing its dirty game with me.

It is fucking me up.

Again.

The thing is, i really was happy for a while, the past year was perfect in its own way.

I finally felt okay.

But why did I believe that it would last forever. Why did I believe i was getting better.

Why it didn't cross my mind that in a span of seconds, i can lose it all.

Lose everything.

But - Why ?

What went wrong-

I tried to be my best. So i can deserve her.

But looks like, my best wasn't enough.

I get that now.

I looked around the room and shook my head. Nothing looks the same.

Nothing feels the same after her.

The house feels so empty, my heart feels so empty, i feel empty.

It's getting colder, and so is my heart.

It's getting darker, and so is the thoughts in my mind.

I can feel myself falling apart.

Again.

As i made my way to the stairs, my eyes connected with that specific door, i stopped and my heart clenched tight.

I took a step backward from the stairs and slowly walked toward it, my steps paused by the closed door. My fingers itching to push it open.

But in the same time, scared.

Because i know it'll be empty, she won't be inside.

Ignoring the building fire in my heart, my fingers wrapped themselves around the knob, twisting it, i pushed the door open.

And like I thought, she wasn't there.

Whenever i used to come home and not find her, i would always come here, to this specific room. She would be there, standing before the canvas, living in her own world, looking so relaxed, peaceful, and free.

As she stood there, she used to lose herself.

And i would be here, lost in her.

For a moment there, i actually saw her, as if memories replayed in my mind all over again, giving me this illusion, torturing my heart more.

I saw her, she was looking at the canvas in front of her, her fingers moving along it, she titled her head as if checking what she just brought to life, a small smile crossed her lips in satisfaction.

My heart melted and it hit me.

It him me so hard.

She lifted her eyes up, they connected with mine and if possible, her smile grew wider.

She placed the brush down, and moved, she started walking toward me and my heart jumped up and down.