The Death of Me | A mafia story

Chapter 31 - The man behind the beast

I love all the hate for Cara in the last chapter lmao XD

btw to all Alex's shippers,

watch out,

we got many Nikolas shippers from the last chapter, I don't know how or why or what 🤦🏼‍♀️

[AND smaller chapter than usual i know, but bear with me, university is not giving me a break *breaks into tears*]

Cara's POV

I want to throw up. Again.

The touch of his lips on mine still drove in me the same amount of disgust it always did.

My stomach tightened more. Can I just throw up in his mouth?

It's okay Cara, hold on more, it is all going as planned, come on.

I shakily brought my hand up before I let my fingers lightly rest over his cheek feeling the rasp of his light stubble against my fingertips. Shame gripped me by the throat. I knew I shouldn't be doing this, no matter what my motivations behind it are, I shouldn't be doing it.

I hated every second of it. Because Alex doesn't deserve this.

But all I can think about day and night is the possible ways to ruin this man I am now kissing, to see him painfully pay for all his sins, for the lives he had stolen and all the hearts he had broken.

My desire for revenge is the only thing keeping me from going insane. It clouded my heart, my mind, and every cell in my body is screaming for it.

He made a low sound in his throat as he drew me closer and I did nothing but surrender. My other hand plastered against his chest feeling something pumping hard underneath my palm.

Oh, so he does have a heart after all.

Good.

The plan now is simple; win his heart and trust, take all I can out of it and then simply break it. Trample all the light from his life, crush him just like he had crushed every good thing in mine.

My head spun in this muddle of distaste and dread and the faintest flicker of hope that things are working out my way for the very first time.

The hold of our lips broke. Relief left me in a stuttered breath. Every cell in my body was pulling back, repelling away, because deep inside they knew I shouldn't be this close to him. But I had to suck it up and go with the flow.

Sucking in a steeling breath, I pried my eyes open. He was staring back at me, dazed and breathless. His hand still gripping the back of my neck, his nose almost touching mine from the closeness.

A low breath left his mouth before he whispered the words out, "What are you doing?"

Okay, let the drama start.

I swallowed hard, I blinked and shook my head as if I couldn't believe what just happened, "I - I d-don't know." I stuttered, out of words. I brought my hand and removed his from over my neck before I pushed myself away from him, I shook my head, panic flared in my voice, "This - this is wrong."

He inched closer to me and I took another step backward, he brought his hand to my arm, "Cara-"

"No! Leave me." I snapped while pushing him away, "This didn't happen, it didn't." I shook my head.

Tears. I need tears.

Come on Cara.

"But you kissed me back." He said. He is falling for the act. Great.