The Death of Me | A mafia story

Chapter 17 - You were better off dead

Before you start reading, just take a look at this beautifully written poem about the last chapter, written by one of my best friends here on Wattpad, RunningOuttaTime :

" Our eyes met and hands touched,
Lights dimmed as our eyes clashed.
Mask covered our faces but our voices heard,
Two years without you weren't roses on bed.

Eyes remained unblinked, both yours and mine,
Touches ignited the calming inferno again.
I stand confused, bewildered and betrayed,
Is it really you or am I dreaming again?

Masks came off, faces uncovered,
It was really you, still beautiful like the old days.
They said you were no more,
How did you come back, fighting rage and gore?

Tears flowed as our gaze melt,
Heart sped as our lips met.
I couldn't forgive you, for you changed my world,
Not for good but for worst.

Kept yourself away, and our baby girl,
Killed me everyday for two years, how good did you feel?
Death became a play and you the best player,
Played my heart until you were pleased.

I was moving on, I swear, until you came along
With our baby,
And a new ring decorated your hand,
What mess is this? You were better gone.

Mixed feelings erupt now,
Scarring me each passing moment, for my stupidity, my love,
Even with the scars,

I am ready to kill for you. "

MY HEART STILL BREAKS WHENEVER I READ IT AHH, Thanks babe for this.

Guys check my girl's books, she is a great writer, i tell you. I love you komkom, RunningOuttaTime ❤

Back to the story now, and oh, be ready to hate Alex from now onwards *evil smirk*

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Cara's POV

Alex stood paralyzed as Roman walked toward me with Lilly in his arms, her head resting on his shoulder with her small arms wrapped around his neck.

He stopped beside me, "She is sleeping." He said as he lightly stroked her hair before he carefully handed her to me, i took her in my arms but my eyes were seeing nothing but Alex; the pain, the hurt, the love and the breathless look in his eyes as he gazed at our little girl.

I can't even imagine what he's feeling at the moment. My heart felt heavy as the guilt started to consume me.

What i regret the most is this. Taking her away from him.

I wronged them both by that. He didn't get the chance to witness the first two years of her life, hear her first word, see her first steps, rock her to sleep and start the father-daughter bond that i am sure he would've been great at. And she - she doesn't even know who he is.

At that thought, my arms involuntary tightened around her frail body. She sighed as she shifted in my arms, my eyes drifted to her, her head resting over my chest, her eyes still closed, peacefully sleeping.

How i am going to make her understand that Nikolas is not her father, that Alex is. How ? She is so young, how she'll be able to comprehend it-

I was pulled out of my thoughts when Roman leant closer and kissed Lilly's head, he smiled, "I am gonna miss you so much, you precious little one." he whispered as if just for her to hear as he gently stroked her cheek with the back of his index finger.