Sheiia
'Pardon me for saying this, but I love you, Lerise.'
If these words are put in a song, then I'll be having an LSS right now. It feels like everything happened just a while ago wherein fact, it's more than twelve hours already.
Akala niyo ba nag I love you too agad ako?
Of course not. Ni hindi ko nga alam kung mahal ko na ba siya or ano. Ni hindi rin ako sigurado kung anong nararamdaman ko.
'You don't need to answer me. I just want you to know how I feel towards you.'
I was still astounded when she motioned for us to go home. It felt like I left my senses in that place I wasn't able to process everything what happened up to this moment.
Feeling ko nga nasa alapaap pa rin ako ng mga sandaling ito. I never felt so happy like this. This is felicity.
But I need to consider many things. The situation, Prof ko siya at estudyante niya ako plus the fact that we're both women. Isa pa, ang age gap namin. Lalo na sina Mom and Dad. Si Ate. They will be more than disgusted to me. Hindi ko pa naayos ang gusot sa pagitan namin at ayokong dagdagan pa iyon.
You're just afraid to take risk.
Oo, takot ako sumugal. Pero paano ako susugal kung mismong ako hindi ako sigurado sa nararamdaman ko sa kanya? It will be unfair to her. Paano kung hindi naman pala pagmamahal tong nararamdaman ko sa kanya? What if I'm just overwhelmed or infatuated to her?
Si Kuyang may blue eyes.
I shrugged off in disbelief and prepared myself to go to school. I went to the library to check on the book I left yesterday. I suddenly have this urge to finish that book.
Humanap ako ng magandang puwesto at dun umupo hawak ang libro. It's an hour before my first class, sinadya ko talagang maging maaga ngayon to finish the book. Baka sakaling mapulot ako doong kahit isang sagot sa madami kong tanong.
I need something to focus my attention para hindi ko masyadong isipin ang nangyari kahapon.
When she says she loves you, believe her. Cause she's willing to take the risk together with you.
Iyon ang nakasulat sa papel na nahulog mula sa libro. I remember writing something in this book but that's just to ease my confusion. I never thought someone would be able to get read that piece of paper and make an answer. Walang nakasulat na pangalan sa papel. Gusto kong isipin na si Prof ang nagsulat nito but then again, I don't want to assume and be disappointed in the end.
Cause she's willing to take the risk together with you.
Am I willing to take the risk? I don't know, because I'm not yet sure of my feelings towards her. Damn, what should I do?
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Iniwasan kong mapatingin kay Prof in whole duration of the class. Maybe, she can sense that I'm avoiding her kaya hinayaan na lang din niya ako.
"I so hate that bitch!" Breaktime yun at nasa cafeteria kami. Kasama din namin sina Pat, Rox, Ralf, Vincent at Matthew. Kanina pa nagmamaktol si Vera dito sa tabi namin.
"What happened to you, Vera? Is there any problem?" Nagtatakang tanong ni Vincent. Kasalukuyan nitong nilalantakan ang biniling white sauce pasta ni Vera. Kaya antaba ni Vincent e, pati pagkain ng iba kinakain niya.
"Don't mind me guys. Sheiia, can you accompany me to the ladies room?" Vera looked upset so I nodded in response.
Dumiretso kaming dalawa sa CR ng mga babae. Vera immediately locked the door as we were already inside.
BINABASA MO ANG
I Love You, Prof.
General FictionI feel so indecisive What should I do? Without you is hell Uncertainty is all I feel How am I supposed to accept, The bitter fact That no matter what we do We're not meant to be? It's you - my forbidden happiness This love tears me into pieces.