Sheiia
I know I was being a jerk. Yes, why not? Because I almost consider getting back with her. With Ash. Almost.
Kung hindi lang nagflash sa isipan ko ang mukha ni Heather at ang pag-uusap namin ni Mama. Of course, why would I think that Ash might still be in love with me?
She might think that she hasn't moved on, but I don't think it will last. I don't really think what she feel towards me is love. Love that last, at least.
It's just that we never had this proper closure that we should. Of course, people might think that closure isn't that necessary but for me, it is.
If Ash really loved me that much, she won't be involved with Heather at least a year after I was gone. I'm not saying that she doesn't have the right to love another, but one year's a bit short for her to be committed to another person while I was gone.
We're just together for barely seven months while she's with Heather with two years! I'm not saying that you need to be involved with someone for so long before you'll be able to say that you really love her... but with Ash, I might take it the other way.
Yung kulang seven months na pinagsamahan namin, andami na niyang pinaramdam sakin na pagmamahal. How much more pa sa two years nila ni Heather, diba?
Maybe she's just confused of my sudden appearance. Knowing what we've been through and what we had in the past, she might be just needing a closure from me. From us.
Or so I thought.
"A penny for your thoughts, darling?"
Nalingunan ko si Mama na nakangiting nakatunghay sa akin. I glanced at the wall clock and noticed that it was already seven in the evening. Dalawang oras na pala akong tulala dito. Still thinking of what happened two days ago between me ans Ash.
We didn't keep in touch with each other after what happened, that's what I'm sure. Hindi ko alam kung inaantay niya akong maunang magparamdam sa kanya o ano.
"No, Ma. I'm just thinking of the proposal draft that my team has submitted this morning."
Eto na naman ako sa alibi ko.
"Work, again? Parang inaasawa mo na yang work mo a."
Napangiti naman ako ng tumabi sa akin si Mama, trying to hide what I really feel inside.
"Hindi naman Ma. Hindi pa ba kayo natutulog?"
"Maaga pa kaya. Nakalimutan mo nga rin akong sabayan sa dinner kanina. Kaya pala, eh tulala ka naman dito sa kwarto mo. Any problem?"
Mabilis akong umiling sa kanya. Oo nga pala, nakalimutan ko siyang sabayan sa dinner kanina. Gulong-gulo kasi ang utak ko ngayon.
"Wala naman Ma."
"Well, may kinalaman ba yang pagkatulala mo sa bisita mo sa ibaba?"
Maang akong napatingin kay Mama. Sino naman ang bibisita sa akin ngayong oras na ito?
"Sino ang bisita ko Ma?"
"Babain mo for you to see."
Honestly, I don't have any idea of whoever my visitor might be. Imposible namang si Vera dahil bukas pa kami magkikita.
I nodded at my Mom and hurriedly went downstairs to see my visitor. Hindi ko na rin inalintana pa ang hitsura ko sa sobrang pagmamadali. Kinakabahan ako sa hindi ko malamang dahilan.
At parang nananadya ang tadhana. My visitor is the last person I expected to pay me this surprise.
"Hi Lerise!"
BINABASA MO ANG
I Love You, Prof.
Ficción GeneralI feel so indecisive What should I do? Without you is hell Uncertainty is all I feel How am I supposed to accept, The bitter fact That no matter what we do We're not meant to be? It's you - my forbidden happiness This love tears me into pieces.
