Twice in a Lifetime (Zayn Malik)

Chapter 48. Loss.

Chapter 48

Mia's POV

I walked Winnie and Elliot out of the house after they had dinner. Father already left before, stating he had some important business in London. The house even had its own personal chef which was totally unnecessary since our mother couldn't even eat anything special.

Winnie lifted Elliot into the carseat and I waved goodbye to him.

"Goodbye, Elliot. I'll see you soon, butthead." I lied. Who knows how long it's going to be until we last see each other.

"Wait. One more knock knock joke please." He pleaded as Winnie buckled him up.

I gladly enlightened him with one and his amusing giggles sent a surge of content through me. How long will it be til I felt like this again? I've only met Elliot once and we were already so close but now he was probably going to forget about me.

My sister closed the passenger side door and as I stood outside Elliot's window, I waved to him in the backseat again and he happily returned the gesture. Winnie helped grab my suitcase from the trunk. Once she set it on the gravel driveway, she wrapped her arms around me tightly, quietly sniffing.

"I don't mean to cry Mia," she began. "I just can't believe I'm not even allowed to see you. This is ridiculous."

She held me by my arms, her watery eyes started to reflect the light of the full moon.

"I'll be fine. It won't be too difficult being here." I can't believe what I'm about to say. "Who knows? Maybe Mum and I will grow close and she could survive this." I said as I tried to give her my best reassuring smile.

"You're so brave and kind to be doing this. I'm so proud of you, honey. Regardless of how you feel though, at least try to open your heart." She said as she wiped her tears. There was smudges of mascara as she wiped but I decided not to tell her. Maybe Elliot would find it funny.

I nodded in response and she gave a kiss on each side of my cheek before she got into her car and drove out the driveway.

The chilly, country air blew the tall grasses which made them sway in the direction of the wind. Who knew the winds would blow me here? Who knew the path that I chose would lead me to this place?

This place ... I turned around and analyzed the house I was going to be in for God knows how long depending on my mother's condition. I wasn't sure how long she had left but one thing was certain: I didn't want her to die.

Nobody would ever wish for death upon someone, especially not their parents. Unless they were heartless people. But I wasn't one of those people.

Forgiving my parents was never something on my bucket list, but I would try my best. To make it on the list. Although, it's highly unlikely that I would actually let them off the hook because of how much they've hurt me. Because that's just how I was and always will be. I was stubborn with my parents yet no one else. Maybe I was still a child inside who missed her parents dearly. Maybe I was just waiting for them to come find me. And now that they had, I felt kind of secure - almost content.

But enough about what I feel. I was lucky I wouldn't be alone in this process since there was a personal nurse that lived here with mother who knew much more about medical stuff than I did.

When I got up to her room to check up on her, she was wide awake, looking outside the window at the bright moon in the dark night sky. Even though she had to stay in bed most of the day, at least she had a nice view.

"Beautiful, isn't it?." She said, breaking me out of my trance.

"Yes.." I managed with a smile. She waved her arm to call me over and I awkwardly make my way to the chair by her bed. As I sat down, I could see a gleaming in her eyes. I didn't know whether it was out of happiness or sadness but whatever it was, it shattered my heart. To see someone in this state was really miserable not only for her but for me - her daughter - her family.