Twice in a Lifetime (Zayn Malik)

Chapter 61. Leaving.

Chapter 61

Zayn's POV

"You look...amazing," I told Mia who was blushing, standing by the side of the bed, wearing nothing but my shirt. She looked more than amazing. There were no words to describe how affected I was seeing her this way, her straight hair now wavy, her adoring average figure, the timid gleam in her eyes, the way her knees buckled as she pulled the hem of the shirt downward, the nervous smile she wore - I loved it all.

I saw that her black panties were no longer on the floor. Her clothes now folded on top of the dresser.

"You're letting me stay here?" She asked almost surprised.

"Yeah, why not?" I replied, taking a step toward her. I didn't want to provoke her again. The way she cried during the intimate moment, I knew I had crossed the line. I knew she wasn't ready yet I unknowingly pushed her. I had no idea it would have led to us almost fucking. But I was a gentleman and I would wait til she's ready. No matter how long it took, I would wait for her - she was worth the wait and she would be again this time.

"You aren't mad at me, are you?" She was asking the most ridiculous questions.

"Why would I be mad? The only person I should be mad at is myself. For coercing you to bed with me. But trust me, I had no intention of fuc--I mean making love to you," I corrected myself. She'd probably rather call it that than the term I would use. "I was the one who lost control and I apologize..honestly," I added, extending my arms to her, pulling her into me. I felt hers wrap around me and felt sudden comfort that she didn't flinch away. She nuzzled her head in my chest and my hand rested on her soft hair.

"Can we just lay in bed together?," she shyly suggested and I nodded.

She took my hand and led the way to the bed, in the middle of the room where we almost -- well, you know.

"Can I ask you a few questions, Mia?" I asked, as we laid down on our sides facing each other.

"Shoot." She smiled.

"Are you a virgin?" I think I already knew the answer to my own question but I was curious. She looked hesitant, the answer completely obvious by her silence.

"Yes, I am," she nodded, tugging her bottom lip with her teeth. "Is that weird?"

"No, you're saving yourself for that special person."

"And you do know you're that special person, right?"

She looked so concerned, her eyes filled with the sadness that I hated seeing.

"I know and I respect your decision to wait."

"Thank you. If it was any other man, they would have probably left me already," she reached for my hand, rubbing her fingers along the hard knuckles of it.

"Don't ever think that way. The only man who would leave you would be mental. I would never leave you. Our promise. I'll make sure to keep it along with the one I made earlier," I told her.

"How about the one where we wouldn't apologize to each other?"

"Let's just say that one never happened," I mumbled and she smiled. That was a stupid promise anyway. Mia had some uncontrollable habit with the word and asking her to stop was pretty stupid of me. Besides, her apologies were always sincere. "Wow."

"Wow what?"

"I was your first for almost everything. Your first kiss, your first boyfriend, and I'm hoping your .. first time," I carefully added.

"Huh, you're right. Is that a bad thing?"

"It's a definitely a good thing," I assured her.

"One more thing?" I requested and she obliged by simply nodding. "Now I know this will be rather suspicious of me but I assure you, I found out coincidentally. It's been on my mind for quite a while now."