Twice in a Lifetime (Zayn Malik)

Chapter 86. Breakfast.

Chapter 86

Songs

Love the way you lie - skylar grey

Resolution - Matt corby

Mia's POV

I stood in the bathroom, my back against the door as my hand gripped onto the doorknob, trying my hardest not to cry. Breaking down wouldn't help anything at the moment.

But I'd feel better, right?

My legs grew weak, giving out so that I slid to the floor, my arms like jelly at my side. Being with Zayn .. Being in the same room as him, it's gotten to the point where I can barely hold my patience in. I didn't want to fight with him anymore. But why couldn't we move forward from this...

Hearing Zayn say those words, 'I forgive you' .. so abruptly, I wanted so badly to believe them.

I did believe them.

But there was that little voice in the back of my head telling me that he was only saying it out of emotion. He didn't think about it clearly enough and I couldn't accept his forgiveness when he mentioned Perrie.

"If I forgive you about Jack, will you forgive me about Perrie?"

The words still echoed in my head. He only wanted me to forgive him. I brought my knees to my chest, burying my head in between my legs.

The space and time I spent away from Zayn didn't do much either. Running away didn't help anything. I should know that better than anyone. I ran away from him but that in no way lessened my feelings for him.

It wasn't supposed to be this way. None of this was supposed to happen. I knew being with Zayn would be hard, I knew beforehand that there would be obstacles. I just never expected it to be this difficult .. to the point where I didn't know the truth from lies anymore. To the point where I was going mental trying to make things work between us.

If I told him I forgave him a while ago, it wouldn't have been so bad, right? I could run back into his arms and he would embrace me. He would tell me everything would be okay, and we'd live happily ever after.

I chuckled at the ridiculous thought. Happily ever afters only happened in Disney movies.

***

I could not catch any sleep knowing how uncomfortable things were between me and Zayn, the man sleeping less than twenty feet away from me. Things were already tense as it was before we came but after what he said yesterday, things just got worse. We could never catch a break. It was like we were heading backwards, not even one step forward in this .. I didn't know if one could even call this a relationship. A functional one that is.

"Mia.."

The sudden call came from behind me and I lifted my head to see the only other person in the room, fast asleep, his face shining from the outside lights.

Did he still have reoccurring nightmares about me?

I shifted to lay on the other side, facing him but immediately regretted my decision when his eyes shot open. I tried to close mine so he'd think I was asleep but bodily functions have been halted at the moment. He looked over at me, his eyes widening in surprise to find me watching him.

"Can't sleep?" He asked loud enough so that I could hear him and I nodded, my cheek rubbing against the pillow.

"You too?" I asked the obvious as I reached to turn on the lamp.

"Yeah," he moved to a sitting position on the bed, placing his head in his hands as if he was frustrated, murmuring something to himself.

"Are you okay?" I asked, even though he clearly wasn't.