Never letting go (Hunhan)

Chapter 31

Unlike the peaceful cool mornings Luhan has been waking upto for the past years, he woke up due to the feeling of feeling like he is being roasted alive. He sighed, when he realized why he was feeling so hot all over, it was because of the weight lying on top of him and the blanket that was covering them. It felt as though Sehun was sleeping on him rather than the bed.

He is never going to change...

He kicked off the blanket with much difficulty since the younger's leg was draped over his and breathed out with some relief on feeling the cool morning air.

He could feel breathings all over his face since the younger's nose was resting on his right eye with lip's lightly touching the tip of his nose. So, he opened his eyes only to see Sehun's face so close to his own that it was almost planted on his.

And it was how mornings always use to begin when everything was alright, when they were still childrens, when they were in high school and when they were still a couple.

Luhan smiled at the position they were in. How he missed being with Sehun like in the past, without feeling the need to not cross the line that was now always between them, the line he have created. The friend line that shouldn't be crossed and to be always on guard for any type of attacks from the younger.

Snap out of it!

Luhan shook his head. He isn't supposed to be reminiscing about the past. He should be thinking about the future.

Leaning his head back, Luhan moved out his body from under the other and adjusted Sehun's position to make him lie comfortablely on the mattress and on the pillow but even in his sleep, the younger was insistent on facing him, though fortunately for Luhan, Sehun wasn't on top of him anymore.

There was no more movements as they lied facing each other.

Staring at the sleeping face of Sehun, Luhan poked his index finger at the other's forehead and muttered quietly,"Why do you have to be so stubborn..."

Just then Sehun again scooted his face more towards Luhan. It was his habit of being as close as possible with the older.

And inside Luhan has given up.

How many times can he possibly push Sehun away? Not for long, he knows it.

Sehun-ah~

He kept his gaze fixed at the younger's face and pulling his finger back, he placed his hand at Sehun's cheek then he too leaned closer knowing the younger would never be awake at such an ungodly morning-hour and with his eyes closed, he barely and ever so slightly pressed his lips on Sehun's lips.

I am sorry but I have got to stop.

As fast as the contact took place it was gone like that, in a flash. He leaned back and stared at Sehun wondering if by any chance he had woken him but thankfully he hadn't. He went back on staring at the younger, thinking on what he should possibly do to make Sehun realize that he is wasting his time on someone who isn't worth it.

Sighing he ducked his face under Sehun's chin and pressed the side of his face onto the younger's chest, then listened to the steady rhythm of Sehun's beating heart.

Though he have possibly given up inside, he wasn't going to give in to Sehun. That's something he can't do even with all his will. Luhan knows what Sehun wants and hoping from him is very minor compared to what he have done for him but still it was most impossible thing he could do.

Stay strong Luhan.

Stay strong for Sehun..

This time he was the one who snuggled closer towards the younger and wrapped his arms around him protectively, wanting to shield away all his pain though he is the main cause of it.