Thanks For The Memories (Jamilton)

{10} hospital gospels

There will be alot of diffrent POV's because it's better told in my opinion

Alex's POV
I tried to carry Thomas to his car and drive him to the hospital

Thomas was in the emergency room for a day or two with a coma. I didn't leave his side and I skipped classes. I was fast asleep and woke up to the sound of moving. I snapped my eyes open to see a confused Thomas sat up in the hospital bed. "Thomas?!" I said and tackled him in a hug. "Alexander what the fuck are you doing here?! When did I get here what happend?!" He asked,pushing me away. Tears filled my eyes. "You tried to kill yourself,Thomas." I answered.
"What why?!" He asked,alarmed.
"I...." i pausef amd took a deep breath. "I cheated on you,when I was....drunk and at a party." I admitted and sighed. "Thomas we're not even official or anything don't be mad-" I was cut off by Thomas. "Yeah we're not dating,Alexander and never will." He said sternly.

"Ask madison! Or anybody!" I was cut off again. Tears start dripping down my cheeks.

"Call them now. I would never date you,I like-" He stopped himself. "I'm not even going to say." He said. Tears spilled faster out of my eyes.

"Thomas. I drove you here and apoligized." I looked to a bag and a bouquet of rosed that was sitting on a chair. "I got you presents and you think I don't love you and we wont date!" I said and stormed out.

I got to the waiting room and slid down a wall,putting my face in my knees and started sobbing. Lafayette walked in with Herc and John. "Qu'est-ce qui s'est passé, Alexander?! (What the fuck happened,Alexander?!)" Lafayette exlaimed. I just started to loose my breath. John sat by me and hugged me. Laf did the same and Herc stormed in Thomas's room.

Herc's POV
I storm into Thomas's room and he looks at me with surprise then narrows his eyes at me. "What the fuck did you say to Alex?!" I yelled at him,stepping closer. "He cares for you and loves you! This is how you repay him?! What Is wrong with you,you. You insufferable prick!" I yell more. He looks at me and groans.
"All I said was that we weren't dating! I don't even know why I'm here!" He said. Fuck. He forgot everything. I knew he was in a coma but I didn't know he had amnesia! But they're soul mates! He should remember. "Alex is my best friend,not even that he's my brother! I love him with all of my heart and I care about him so much!" I stopped and realized tears flowing out of my eyes. "You won't know how that feels...to have someone you love be hurt. Alex tried to kill himself because of you multiple times and I bet you wouldn't care. You can't possibly fuck someone up that bad!" I turn around to walk out and see Alex smiling and crying,Lafayette hovered over him and patting his back. I didn't know where John was at the time.

I walked over to Alex,still kind of crying and hug him. He hugs back and we squeeze eachother and let go before Thomas scoffs. "You gays and your herim. It's so gross!" He said sticking his tounge out in disgust.

Lafayette starts to walk over to him,rolling his sleeves up but I stop him. He looks at me and nods then continues walking over to Thomas. "I don't know how many times we have to tell you this, me and Herc love each other. You and Monsieur Hamilton are soulmates how do you forget that?" Jefferson looked puzzled. "Because he isn't." He responded. Alex darted out and I heard faint sobs and I ran after him.

Lafayette's POV
"Because he's not." Thomas said to me. I rolled up my sleeves for God knows how many times today. I was stressed so anything I said would be said and done,couldn't be taken back. non. "At least I can acually love someone!"

"Lafayette,I thought we were friends!-" I cut him off. "Before you Hamilton was mine." I said then walked off. I walk to my car and call John. He answers "hey l-laf." He sniffles. "Mon amie John are you okay? I'm coming over
à présent!" I start my car up. "N-no! It's okay I'm fine! You don't have to do that!" John says in a reassuring way and sniffles. "Mesiour Laurens I'm coming over and Vous ne pouvez pas m'arrête!" (you cant stop me!)I say and hang up. I start driving
Alex's POV
I ran away from the scene in the hospital and ran to my dorm. I didn't want him coming back for a while. I didn't want to see him ever again,okay maybe that's over exaggerating but still! I almost got there when Herc ran upto me. "Alex!" He yelled. I didn't respond I just ran faster and Thomas came to mind.

His smile was some sort of subtle and real.

His humor wasn't too sarcastic to the point to where he didn't care about people's feelings.

He cared like it wasn't his buisness,even if it wasn't. Only for certain people.

Not me.

"Come on Alex! Calm down!" Herc says again and grabs my arm.

"P-please Herc..." I trail off. I snuggle and sob into his shirt.
"It's okay,Alex. Let it all out,but maybe we should go inside." He says. I look up and smile. I start walking with Herc at my side. "Hey Alex,can...can I ask you something?" Herc asks. I nod. "Okay so,when Thomas...forgot about your guy's realationship,honestly I don't know if you guys where official but it felt like it-" I cut him off. "No we weren't,sorry keep going." I smile and Herc smiles back. "Did you see him cover his chest with his blanket thing?" He asked. "I didn't notice i was crying!" I said and fake punched him and he chuckled. "I know I know!"

We finally got to my dorm. "When Thomas comes back you can stay in my dorm with me and John. I don't mind and I bet John would love you over." Herc informs me. I was kind of shocked because I'm surprised no one noticed me and John walk upstairs together. I had to tell him. I sighed before saying: "Herc I "cheated" on Thomas with John. I doubt he wants to see me." Herc scrunched his eyebrows. "What do you mean?" He asked and looked shocked instead of confused. "Holy shit! Alex I'm sorry! I let Thomas in and told him were you where this is all my fault!" He told me and put his head in his hands. "Alex,I-I didn't know! I'm sorry! I fucked up, I was probably way too fucking drunk to realise what I did! John wasnt that drunk during the whole party and we all knew about you and Thomas I can't belive him!" I sighed. "It's my fault. I let him." I pause. "It should've been me,Herc." I mumble to myself.

Thomas's POV
Lafayette was yelling at me and I still had the covers over my chest. Lafayette was suppost to be my friend! Why was he suporting Alex? I don't understand. I noticed my phone on the chair beside me. I looked at the bag that was on the chair that was next to my phone. It has a little tagand I flipped it so I could read it.
To: Thomas <3
From: Alex

There was a heart next to my name. He was serious wasn't he? A sudden memory came to mind.

Flash back
Alex slapped me and I was punched in the stumach. I fell to the ground. I don't remember why I was getting hit but I started getting kicked now.
Flash back end

I don't remember half of that story. I'm glad I didn't. The bag next to me taunted me. The flowers made me feel bad. I made Alex cry because I can't remember? Well we're not soulmates,I have a gut feeling. No matter how many times my chest will light up I will not belive it. I don't like him like that.

After Lafayette left I worked up the courage to open the bag on the chair. It had a new magenta sweat shirt,it was really soft and big. How did he know that I like big clothes on me? It's really hard to find sweatshirts that are big on me. I felt my face get warm. I was probably blushing.
I opened the next thing. It was a card.
Get well soon it said in the outside. I opened it.

My dearest, Thomas
I love you with all my heart
There's no words for my. compassion. I hope you get better soon. I missed you while you were being a sleepy head.

I didn't want to feel bad so I just put the card away and put the sweatshirt on. It has a star in the corner and says shine. It was cheesey but I liked it and it made me feel confident for once.

Time skip because I'm lazy (next day)
Alex's POV
I went to Hercs house and saw John crying on the couch. Without a second thought I ran to him and hugged him. He was trembling in my arms. He looked at me. "Alex I'm sorry I put you in this situation I didn't mean to I love you so much!" He said before pulling me into a hug. "I know,John it's okay I love you too." I sighed and picked him up like a baby and put him in my lap. He started sobbing into my chest and squeezed me. "No,Alex not like that I love you!" He confessed. He looked at me. "A-alex. I don't think you mean that you love me like that. I mean I really really love you." I was shocked by the information he was giving me and Herc's reaction was similar to mine. John sqeezed my cheeks and made me look at him. "John." I said. Before I could say anything else he kissed me in the lips. I pulled away and pushed him off of me. I walked to the door.