"Why do you treat me this way?" I asked softly. He looked shocked by the question, but then his facial expression softened. "Because...I like you." He mumbled. "What?" "I like you!"
"You Know We Belong Together I Have No Time For You To Be Playing With My Heart Like This You'll Be Mine Forever Baby, You'll Just See" Boyz II Men x End Of The Road ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
•Carter "C" James•
I pulled my hair into a bun as I rapped along with Nicki in her song Fly.
"Me against them, me against enemies, me against friends. Somehow they both seem to become one. A sea full of sharks and they all smell blood, they start comin, and I start risin, must be surprisin, I'm just surmisin. I win, thrive, soar, higher, higher, higher, more flya!" I puckered my lips and made a video on Snapchat.
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My confidence has definitely come up a lot from what happened on prom night and the few days after. My dad and Nicole pulled me out of school and I've been home schooled since. I wanted to have the graduation that any other senior has, but not all things will go in my favor.
My therapist, Ms. Rosa has helped me a lot. Every session–which is every other day for 3 hours–starts off with a complement. Then for one hour, I have to find different stuff that I like about myself and why I like it, then for only half an hour, I have to talk about stuff I don't like about myself and why, and how I'll change why I don't like it. Then the rest of my time, I'm explaining different parts of my life and how it affected me. Just talking about it actually does help. Some days are better than others.
I was going to therapy at 4 and I felt like I'd need it today. I was going back to the school for the first time since prom for Kingston's graduation and I didn't wanna see anybody there. Besides Tai, Alex, Jaclyn, and Nolen of course. They had become people I could really trust. And I know you're thinking, Nolen? Since when? Since he stopped me from killing myself, he's checked on me every single day by coming over and making sure I was doing okay. And if I wasn't, he talked to me until I was.
Honestly, I want him back. He told me he broke up with Kianna after she started being insensitive about my situation and him caring about me. I think she even talked about it to some of her friends. But it's still on sight, so whenever she shows her face, I'll have a reason to beat her ass.
"Carter, come on!" Alexa shouted. "You takin forever!" I laughed because this girl had no right to be rushing someone.
I had on a denim romper and gladiator sandals with minimum makeup because it was hotter than the devil's buttcrack today.
"You look nice, sweetie." Nicole said.
"Yeah, you do." Dad said, kissing my forehead.
"Thank you." I smiled.
I really appreciated both of them. They've been working nonstop to make sure we're all happy and stay happy. Dad even quit his job with the FBI, and became a police officer. He's already the chief because he's coming down from a higher ranking.
