Reckless Behaviour (Exo Kai)

In Denial

Chapter 29 – In Denial

Jina

On my second week working at the club I got the shock of my life when I saw a billboard on my way to work and realized it was a picture of Kai and me. I guessed they finally released the photos from the photo-shoot we had a while back.

Surprisingly it was a picture with just me and Kai, without Sehun. Kai was only in a pair of jeans, hanging low on his hips while I had his shirt but with the way it was just barely hanging on to my forearms with the collar fallen all the way to my lower back, I might as well have not had it on at all. It was almost a full frontal of Kai but angled a little bit to the side. Kai had his hands on my ass, holding me up while I had my legs wrapped around his upper waist and my face was angled down with a hint of a smirk playing in the corner while Kai looked up at me with a look that could melt any girls panties off. It both pained and thrilled me to see us together like this from someone else's eyes. The shot seemed so intimate and anyone looking would feel like they were intruding on a very private moment.

Now that I thought about it, I never actually remember posing this way for the shoot, not to mention that the angle exposed a little of my side boob. But what had me so surprised was the fact that you could actually see a little of my face, not enough to ever recognize but anyone who's ever seen me with Kai could easily put two and two together. This must have been when we were fooling around between the different segments of the shoot. I wonder how much misery Kai gave the director when this billboard actually went up. I remember Kai threatening the producer with a swift end to his career if he ever posted the photos he took of us while we weren't posing for the shoot.

It wasn't until Yeena concerned me, asking me about the photo that I realized how big a deal the photo had turned out to be.

After the first few weeks I stopped looking Kai up, although I was happy for him, it still hurt to see him with Irene. Especially when my life had gone back to being this humiliating, miserable existence. It seemed all the more worse for the little good time I had with him.

"Is it really you and him?" Yeena seemed to be so full of glee. Like she was seeing something in that picture that was not there.

"Yeah, though I don't think its from the shoot. I don't think we posed that way, must be something the director shot while we were on break."

"You were doing that on your break?" I could only shrug, I couldn't see what the big deal was.

"The big deal is that it's so damn hot and romantic that it has the whole Internet in a frenzy." She must have seen the unasked question on my face.

"You know it was anything but romance." I shrugged. "Kai would have a panic attack if he heard your words." I teased.

"But you love him." Her frustration was clear like she couldn't understand why I was doing everything to stay away from Kai.

"I loved him, it's different now."

"What's changed?" Yeena asked and the fear and worry on her gaze was not lost on me. I wanted her life to be the total opposite of mine so bad but I was failing miserably. It was getting harder and harder to keep the smile on my face these days.

Kai

I watched the tears running down Jina's sisters face and wondered how bad things might be that her sister felt the need to come looking for me.

"Do you love her?" Her voice trembled as she asked me with a hopeful look but her gaze was steady, demanding a honest answer from me. She had so much of her sisters stubborn bull headedness that I almost felt like laughing. But her question had my head running in a loop. Did I love Jina? I don't know but she was definitely special to me.

"Damn if I knew." I shrugged it off.

"But you care about her?" Her eyes begged me to say yes and for the life of me I couldn't see why. It was Jina who left, it wasn't me. I admit, I shouldn't have pushed her into a corner like I did but damn it, I thought I was doing it for the better. She would have never let me take care of her otherwise.

I looked at Suho and Chanyeol, they were listening in on our conversation. Chanyeol had seen Yeena in the crowd in front of the building and had pulled her in but now I wished they would go away.

I did care about Jina but I had pride. I wasn't going to admit that in front of anyone when Jina damn well threw my help back in my face and asked me to fuck off. Not literally but when I went looking for her and realized she had moved and changed her number, I got the message loud and clear.

"What do you want?" My frustration and annoyance was clear in my tone. It wasn't aimed at her but I saw her shoulders sag and her face crumble thinking it was.

"I don't know whether you care enough for this to matter." She hesitated. "Recently I've noticed things. My sister went back to working at a club, a different one." She sobbed as if she couldn't bare to reveal what she was about to say. "She has nightmares these days. I don't think she realize but she cries in her sleep and then," she looked up and the look in her eyes sent dread down my spine as I clenched my hands, I see where this was going and I wished to god that It wasn't what I think. "She flinch sometimes when I touch her, even me, when I touch she flinch away. Like ..like .."

"Fuck." I stood up feeling like hell. I wanted to beg someone to tell me it was wrong that this was a nightmare. "Where is she now?" I demanded.

"Kai, you have a TV show appearance with Irene in an hour." Suho was quick to point out.

"Do I look like I give a fuck?" I shouted, picking up the centerpiece on the table and throwing it at the wall but it made me feel nothing but fucking helpless. From the corner of my eye I saw Yeena flinch and cower, it could have easily been a normal reaction because I looked half crazy but there was a look in her eyes that said maybe it wasn't just her sister who was going through a hard time. Before I could ask her anything Chanyeol was beside her, giving me a glare that could have frozen fire.

"Where is she?" I asked more softly and she prattled out the address. "Anyone of you have your car keys with you?" I asked because I didn't want to loose anymore time going in search of my own car keys that was probably in one of the dace studio rooms. Suho shook his head but Chanyeol gave me his.

Suho walked me down to the basement where Chanyeols car was parked. "I'll cover for you but Kai you know you can't be photographed going into a strip club right?"

"Like I said, do I look like I give fuck?" I sounded much calmer now but I was boiling inside, it was easier to focus on the anger than the desolation.

"No you don't." He was silent for a beat. "Do you love her?" I froze gripping the handle on the car door. I turned to him, my expression must have looked torn because he shook his head like he was about to reprimand me. "You need to come to terms and admit you love her Kai. We all see it except you yourself because you're in denial. It's already cost your girl this much. Are you still going to be like this?" I was about to get in when he stopped me with a touch on my shoulder. "Remember, regret can be a bitch, It will haunt you for life."

The look on his face was telling me that he was letting me see something he had never spoken about before. I wanted to ask him more about it but I wasn't willing to let Jina go through whatever the hell it was any longer than I already have, so with a nod I got in.

"Go ahead, I'll send some security to the club." Suho clapped me on the back before I closed the door.

A/N: Finally Kai's kind of getting there. I hear all of you sighing in relief lol. Anyways what do you think is up in store for next chapter? I'm thinking to wrap the story up soon actually. So I can move on to another.

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