Reckless Behaviour (Exo Kai)

Love

Chapter 32 – Love 

Kai

All night I watched Jina sleep, with a blissfully peaceful look on her face. So badly I wanted to carry her into the bathroom, to soak her body in a warm bath. To wash away all the evidence of all those dirty touches that had no right to be on her skin.

Earlier when she came into the room, I saw the bruises that was just starting to form on her nipples, they looked swollen and raw from abuse but it was the blood between her thighs that had my chest aching. Someone had hurt her, in the worst way possible. Even when she tried to reassure me that it was only their touch that she had to bare, I couldn't calm the storm of emotion in me at all. How much force and abuse was forced on her for her pussy to be this bleeding swollen mess of skin?

Finally after hours of torturing myself with the state Jina was in now, I was glad to look out the window of my bedroom and see the first rays of sun breaking through the darkness. I was hesitant to leave her side but I wanted to ease her pains at least a little bit before she woke up.

I wet a few washcloths with some warm water and made my way back to her side. I looked at the mess of makeup on her face but didn't want to start there because that was sure to wake her up. I pulled the sheets down and Jina moved restlessly at the interruption. I held still until she settled again. Once her breathing evened, I moved one of her legs apart and brushed my fingers on the bruised and swollen skin with my fingers. Regret and devastation was a bitter taste in my mouth and a pounding ache in my chest. My hands shook as I covered her injured skin with the warm cloth. She groaned in pain and started moving restlessly again.

"Shhh ... Kitten, just bare with it for a minute. It will start to feel good in a bit." I whispered, knowing she was too deep in her sleep to hear but I ran my fingers through her hair, trying to comfort her as best as I knew how. "Just bare with it, kitten." I kept whispering over and over as I cleaned her up between her legs, hoping the warmth would help with the soreness she was sure to feel.

"Kai?" Her voice was groggy with sleep as she looked at me with confusion.

"I didn't mean to wake you." I said with a grimace as I pulled my hands away. She sat up a little to rest against the headboard and looked down to see the washcloth in my hand. The intimacy of what I had been doing wasn't lost on either of us.

"Thank you." She said avoiding my eyes. "You don't have to."

"Of course I do." I said leaning forward to meet her eyes. I wanted no more misunderstandings or half-truth between us. "You're mine now. Mine to protect and mine to care for."

She held my gaze for a moment and I read so many emotions pass through her. Sadness, doubt, fear, hesitation, before finally settling on hope. That's all I wanted to know. As long as she had the slightest bit of hope left for us, I can work with that.

"Don't you feel repulsed?" I blinked at her question, thinking she must be joking. She shuffled a little to sit up more straighter and winced when it must have pulled on her injured skin.

Before answering, I picked up the second washcloth and got to work, cleaning up her face. Most of the makeup came off but some were too stubborn to come off. I gave up with a sigh, this will have to do for now.

"Are you embarrassed?" I asked, instead of answering her question.

"Yeah." She said not meeting my eyes. It was so uncharacteristic of her and I could only pray that the fire I loved so much in her was still somewhere there inside.

"Don't be, seeing you like this only shows how much I have failed in taking care of you. How much I failed you." I dropped the washcloth to the ground and leaned forward to cup her cheek. I felt a punch to my gut when she leaned into my touch. "I should be the one embarrassed and as for, am I disgusted?" I held her hand and guided it to my crotch so she could feel how hard I was. "I am but only at myself. I was only trying to clean you and see how hard I am." I groaned when her fingers clenched on my erection. "Then again, I may be cleaning but how can I not be turned on when it's you pussy I'm touching." Her breath hitched at my words and her grip tightened but I was the one who made her let go. I gently guided her hand away and leaned to kiss away the tear that ran from the corner of her eye. "You should get some more sleep kitten." I helped her shuffle down the bed to lie down again while my chest ached with every gasp and flinch of pain she let out.