(K/C)= kagane color
(M/D)= mask design
Disappointment. Waste of space. Useless.
These are some of the words the other students at school call me. I have been acting like I was a normal human since I was young. Us ghouls are seen as monsters. The world hates us. There's nothing we can do about it. We can never live in peace. There will always be conflict between the two races.
"What are you doing you psycho?" asks the captain of the cheerleading team. I had just closed my locker after grabbing my books to go home. I turned around to face her.
"Yeah you stupid skank." says another cheerleader as most of the team blocks my escape routes. I hold my books to my chest trying not to get mad at them. I don't want to lash out on them. Even though they pick on me a lot.
"Going home." I say in my usual monotone voice. The captain punched me and busted my lip. I tasted the blood, it took every fiber in my being to keep my hunger under control and keep my eyes from turning red. I slowly set my books down. The girl who called me a skank reared her fist back and tried to punch me. I grabbed her fist and pulled her closer to me. I used my other hand to punch her in the face. She stumbles backwards.
Another girl steps up from the side trying to blindside me. I duck as she throws her punch, I spin around kicking my leg out knocking her to the ground. The captain tried to kick me in the side, but I grabbed her leg and push her down. The rest of the girls look to afraid to fight me, now that they know I can fight back. One girl tried to run, but I grabbed the back of her shirt and pulled her back. I turned her to make her look at me. She had her eyes squeezed shut and was trembling in fear.
"Please don't hurt me." she pleaded as a tear slid down her cheek. I snapped out of my trance I was in and felt so bad. I let go of her. She slowly opened her eyes and looked at me with tear-filled eyes.
"I'm... sorry." I said quietly as I ran to the doors. I pushed the exit doors open and ran down the stairs not caring if I had left my books. Tears threatened to spill from my eyes. The wind made my eyes burn as I ran towards Anteiku. Monster, outcast, unneeded. These words rung loud and clear in my head. Disaster, not right, unloved. All of it was true.
I looked up and saw the front door of Anteiku. I burst through the door, probably causing everyone to look up. I didn't stop to notice, I ran up the stairs to my room. I slammed the door shut, I leaned my back against the door and slid down it. I sat on the floor with my knees pulled up to my chest and cried. What good am I? I can't even control my own strength. I'm unwanted, more like cracked. Someone knocked on my door, I stayed silent hoping that they'd go away.
"(Y/N). It's me. Kaneki. What's wrong?" he asks through the door. My heart hurt. I knew that Kaneki was a ghoul too, but I have always been one. I have been here in Anteiku with Touka and Yoshimura ever since I was five. Once Kaneki joined Anteiku I had become really good friends with him, I think I even love him. I just don't want to be this broken around him. It hurts not knowing if your crush feels the same as you do.
"Kaneki let me talk to her." comes Touka's voice. "Hey (Y/N). Can I come in?" I don't reply. "I have your books you left. I slowly stand up and face the door.
"Are you alone?" I ask.
"Yeah. I'm alone. Kaneki went back downstairs to finish his shift." she says. I open the door and let her in. I closed the door after her, but only to where it wad cracked. She lead me over to my bed and sat me down, then sat down beside me. "What happened today?" I looked down at the floor. My (H/L) (H/C) hair covered my face.
"The usual. The jocks made jokes, everyone avoided me like I had the plague and worst of all the cheerleaders picked at fight with me. I went into one of my trances. The ones where I can't seem to control my actions. I know what I'm doing, but I can't stop."
"It's okay. Yoshimura can help you learn to..."
"Touka. I've been here since I was five. He hasn't been able to help me with this in the years I was here. Do you really think I'd ever control it if I have been trying all these years?" I ask looking up at her, sadness filling my eyes.
"Maybe you just need the right person to help you."
"Like who? The rest of you have been able to control your hunger and anger. Everyone at school is right. I'm a useless nobody, a waste of space, unwanted."
"Don't say that! Everyone here loves you (Y/N)! Hell Kaneki loves you! He doesn't care if you're a ghoul."
"He doesn't love me Touka. He only thinks of me as a close friend." I say looking at the floor again. "I have loved him for awhile now, but that doesn't mean that he's going to feel the same way." I say. Just then the door swung open and Kaneki fell to the floor.
"Kaneki!?" I shouted. He groans and looks up, his face beamed red. He jumped straight up.
"Uh... I... it wasn't... what it looked like." he stuttered.
"It looked like you were listening to us talk." says Touka.
"I... uh..." he sighs. "I was. I wanted to make sure (Y/N) was alright."
"Well I'll just leave you two to talk about things." says Touka. She stands up and walks out and closes the door behind her. It was silent and awkward for a few minutes. Kaneki walked over and sat beside me.
"Was it true?" he asked. I looked up at him in confusion.
"Was what true?"
"What you said to Touka? About... loving me?" he asks looking me in the eyes. Now it was my turn to blush.
"Yes." I say loud enough for him to hear it. I looked down at our hands. He lifted his hand and brought it to my chin. He lifted my head up and made me look at him.
"Good. Then you won't be mad if I did this." he said. His lips connected with mine. It was gentle, yet passionate. My heart exploded into a million butterflies. Kaneki was kissing me. I closed my eyes and kissed back. Soon we had to pull away for air. When we did we locked eyes again. "I love you (Y/N). Will you be my girlfriend?" I smiled for the first time in years.
"Yes." I say and hug Kaneki.
"I don't care how broken you are. I'm broken as well. We can help piece each other back together." he says.
"I'd like that Kaneki."
A/N: Hey guys sorry for the late updates. I've been busy and I had no idea what to do for this one, but I finally thought of something. So you do you guys want to see next? What should happen? Let me know. Oh! And please pick form the anime in the first A/N please. That way I know who I'm writing about. If I don't know the character I can write about them, I'm sorry but that's just how it has to be. Anyways I'll see you padawans later. Bye!
~Zo
