Wild Hearts {#Wattys2014}

Chapter 12

MEREDITH POV

This is me praying that, this was the very first page, not where the story line ends. My thoughts will echo your name, until I see you again. These were the words I held back, as I was leaving to see. I was enchanted to meet you.

I was just lying on the hotel room bed, staring at the ceiling, with my pjs on and my earbuds on. I never truly listened to Taylor Swift too much, but it's seriously scary how much I can relate to her words right now.

I was still wondering what got into Blake earlier. Did I do something wrong? Did I say something I shouldn't have? This was the main reason why I didn't want to get into a relationship. I always tend to like the guy so damn much, that I worry every second of my life about them. They never leave my head, and all I could think of was how I could fuck up a relationship with someone I like so much. Maybe I was overthinking. But that's usually what I'm best at.

I thought of all the horrific things that I went through in my past. All the self harm, just because I hated myself. Just because I thought I wasn't good enough for some jerk that I liked. But Alex helped me get through that, like the amazing friend she was. I never told Beth since she's the kind of person who hates anyone who would even think about self harming themselves. She thinks of them as attention whores. I could never have gone through all the stress of telling her. I should probably text Alex, to get my mind off of things.

Hey, can you please call when you get a chance?

What came next just broke my heart.

Sorry, the text you tried to send could not be completed for the number you tried has been disconnected.

I couldn't understand why her phone would be disconnected. She was my unbiological sister, she would let me know if she changed her phone number or if something happened.

So I texted Beth to see if she knew what was going on. I got the same reply. Then I texted one of the guys in our class, Matt, and he replied saying that they weren't at school today, which was weird since they didn't miss a day of school since seventh grade.

I had no idea what was going on, but I had to do something about it, cause there was no way this could be normal. Something was definitely off.