Wild Hearts {#Wattys2014}

Chapter 61

Cameron's POV

"Oh my Fucking God, don't say that." Kale looks at me as if he can't believe what I just said. To be honest, I don't quite know what I said myself.

"She's moving to South Africa for some thing she's doing with UNICEF- something I never expected her to do- and I'm most likely never going to see her again. I just, I got feelings for her once I realized that." I looked through the windows that the fancy doors to the dining room had, and saw Meredith with Calypso, trying hard to fight those tears back.

"So just because you're not seeing this bitch ever again, you like her now? Right when you're about to marry someone you have been with for five years? Someone who you gave your whole heart to this whole time? Someone, someone who never cared more for someone than you. Meredith, I don't know where to start, but she would die without you Cam. And I don't know how much I could stress that, but she doesn't know how to live a life where you're not there anymore. You were there when all of the shit in her life started happening, and you were there when they all ended. "

Now Kale seemed to have tears in his eyes.

I looked down at the carpeted floors, realizing I have no words to respond to that.

I don't think I can go on with Meredith Brooks. I don't think I can do this.

"But, I love her and everything, yet I-"

"Shut up, I'm not finished yet. " he just cut me off.

"Meredith, she feels like the happiest girl in the world when she's with you. You make her have a reason to live. Many people told her not to date you at first because you're all that popular kid material. Dating all the popular girls in high school. But look, she still went along with you, knowing you would make her happy. And you have. If you leave her now, I don't think much would go on in her life anymore. I'm afraid she won't want to love anybody ever again. " his plate of food fell on the floor when he started to release his tears.

I brought him into a hug and when I let go, I looked him straight into the eye. "I'm sorry Kale, but I don't know, I don't think I can go on with her. I won't be able to." I head back inside to the dining room, where Calypso is now in tears and Meredith slowly lifts her head up to me. I grab my phone off the table and head back outside right when Meredith got up and held my wrist from behind.

"Wait, we clearly know something is wrong yet we didn't talk about it. Cameron we are getting married and if we can't discuss our problems then how will it work?" Her hazel eyes look at me, showing she's excited talking about the marriage, but has a hint of sadness behind them.

"Meredith, I love you, I really do," to be honest I don't know about that anymore..."but I don't think I can do this marriage thing. M, I'm sorry."

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Meredith's POV

I felt like I just for punched right in my chest. As if I have a hole there now. My heart was beating so hard and I felt like I couldn't breathe. Cameron left as soon as he said that and went back upstairs. I sat down on one of the dining room tables and rested my head on the table. My tears were streaming down sideways and hit the white table cloths.

I couldn't believe what he just said. We only got engaged last night and now he wants to leave me? I didn't know what was going on.

All of a sudden, Emanuel, Janice, Kale, and Violet came into the dining room together. I wonder what Cameron told Kale outside, but I have to ask him later. They noticed that my eyeliner was smudged up and that there were tears on the table, and came up to me to comfort me. Kale didn't come near me, knowing that I most likely needed space and went to Calypso rubbing her back, still trying to calm her down after I told her that Cameron might not have feelings for me any longer.

I didn't want to go on without him, even if I did, I don't think I can. This was all so sudden, and right when I need him the most he disappears.

No.

I won't let this happen.

I suddenly get up from my chair and storm out of the room. I run up the staircase and walk down the hall to our room. I find him there with his hands rested on his knees, and his face covered by the palms of his hands.

"What the fuck is going on?"

He's surprised by hearing my voice and gets up from the edge of the bed.

"Look, this is hard for me... And I really do love you, but I can't do this. "

"You can't do this?" I say waving my hand in the small space between us.

"I don't want to do this, I should rather say..."

"Then why did you do this to me?" I say with my stress level at it's highest.

"Do what?" Now he we getting tensed too.

"Everything! Cameron Davis, you are my whole world. You led me into believing that you actually loved me! I thought you made me your whole universe. We went through so much shit and so many things and now you give up on me the day after you f'n propose to me! " I start to pace around the room, and I didn't know where to fully begin.

"We know that Blake broke my heart once." Now I was calming down a bit.

"Yesss....?" He responded.

"Well Cameron, he really hurt me when he broke my heart. My heart was in the smallest of pieces. I didn't expect it to ever go back to the way it was before. I didn't think anything would help it become one heart again. And then I realized i was wrong when I met you. You put those pieces as gently as possibly together, and you fixed my broken heart. And I don't know what I would've done without you. You can't just leave me like this." The tears were slowly coming back again.

"I'm sorry, but I can't do this Mere."

"Goddamit Cameron! Why can't you just listen to me? Why can't you do this? Why are you hurting like this?"

"Because I Love Stephanie now okay?" He started to shout.

My heart broke the way you fall asleep. Slowly, then all at once.

Everything seemed to black out once I heard a gun shot. And a burning pain in my back.

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Alright! I think we have about two more chapters to go! Unless I change my mind about finishing the book, it's all these last minute plannings. Lol. Anyways, umm my life has been going really down hill lately, so that has been the reason why I chose to end Wild Hearts. I love you all and I'm close to 8K, but thank you so much. I might not be in this wonderful world for too long, so just remember that I love you guys forever and always :)

~Love Munawar Choudhury🌸