Boys This Young

13|Faggers

"I can't see, or breathe." Dan groaned, and Arin rolled his eyes and took the pillow off of his face.

"Now can you see?"

"You're a miracle!"

Arin scoffed and hit him with the pillow. "Get up! It's a Friday so you have two days to just relax...really study but whatever."

"My head huuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrts."

"How do you think I feel, faggers?"

Dan laughed, "That's a new one."

"I think it sounds funny."

"It does."

"Well you're now Hangover McFaggers until further notice."

"I have a test today." Dan complained, "I'm going to fail."

"Look at me, over here, not caring."

"Uuuuuuggggffffhhhhhyyy."

"If I get you a donut and some aspirin will you shut up?"

Dan's head shot up, "Yes, please."

"Knew it." But instead of leaving, Arin just pulled a shopping bag out of nowhere and threw it at him. "I came prepared, thanks to the local gas station."

"Aw, Arin you're the best."

"Tell anyone and I'll break your face."

"But I like my face."

"No you don't."

"No I don't, you're right." Dan laughed, "But I mean, it could be worse."

"It's a nice face, just sometimes it's hard to learn to love yourself. And that's how I know you don't see your beauty like the rest of the world does."

"Did you just call me beautiful?" Dan asked.

"Nope, I called you blind. Now let's go short stuff we're gonna be late!"

"I'm taller than you!" Dan argued.

"Again, I don't care!"

//

"What are you doing here?" Dan asked, leaning against the door way of his dorm after a long day of having a headache, and narrowing his eyes at Phil.

"Do you not remember last night?"

"I remember going out with Arin...and...dancing. And then I kind of remember him walking me to the dorm? Wait no...wait, were you there?"

Phil laughed. "So you don't. I apologized for everything because I miss you, Dan. And I'm so sorry that I was such a bad boyfriend to you. I love you so much."

"Really?"

"Duh."

"I thought...I thought I was going to be the first to apologize but...oh my god I can't believe you gave in first, I'm so shook."

"Yeah." Phil said, "I miss having you around and talking to you and...I love you more than anything."

Phil tried to hug him but Dan frowned and pushed him off. "I...are you not going to apologize for what you said to me?"

"I'm sorry for making you angry. I know what I said offended you because you know that you're strong and I did not mean to devalue you."

Dan scoffed. "Are you kidding me? Are you not going to even mention that you told me I couldn't be independent and literally treat me like I'm five? Are you not going to mention that you basically called me an attention whore? Are you not going to apologize for making everybody think I hurt you?"

Phil's eyes widened. "I...of course I'm sorry for that, Dan. I just want you back."

"But it doesn't work like that." Dan said, crossing his arms. "We can't just pretend nothing happened, because once we make up you're going to go back to treating me like you do. And I'm sick of it, Phil. I don't care how you see me, it doesn't change the fact that I'm not a little kid. And I don't care where you think we stand right now, but saying I'm sorry doesn't change what you said or what you think of me, especially when I know you don't really care you just want us back happy. You just want to make sure, I'm not doing anything you don't know. You just want to make sure I'm still yours, and that's always been the case, hasn't it?"

"Dan-"

"No, let me finish. You're not the boss of me, Phil. I am my own person. You're not my parent. I love you and yes it is true that I need you, but it's not because I need someone to give me attention. And I've always been okay with you wanting to know what I'm doing but you don't care for how I feel anymore, you just want me to be yours and follow what you say. I am twenty years old, I can walk on my own. And I can want sex! I can masturbate! I can have wants and sexual needs and it not be weird! I am a man not a three year old. I don't know why you think you can control that. And I especially don't know why you can say you love me and want to be with me but won't even let me be with you. It's hurts me, Phil."

Phil sighs. "I know this, Dan. It's just...you've always been my beautiful, and pure Danny and I love to show you that I can make you happy, and that I love you and care about you. I need to take care of you, you've always been someone I need to protect."

"You're not taking care of me! Because I'm becoming unhappy with how you treat me. You never give me a say in anything. If you really cared for me at all, you'd listen. You'd give me what I want."

"But...sex will hurt you."

"Why do you make it seem like I can't trust you?"

"You can trust me."

"I know that! Why do you act like I can't trust you?"

"Because I used to break your heart, and I just want you to be happy."

"Then stop treating me like I need to be controlled because you can't control yourself!"

Phil went silent after that, feeling more hurt than he expected. He didn't like that Dan was right. He didn't like that any of this argument had happened, and that Dan had finally snapped on him. He didn't like that Dan wasn't ready to just jump into his arms like usual.

He wanted to be proud of Dan for standing up to him, but it just made him feel worse.

"But you're my baby boy." Phil said quietly, "You're so delicate and pretty...and I love you."

Dan sighed. "Can we just...I'm tired, Phil."

Phil suddenly held out his hand for him. "Come home with me."
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AN: next chapter just going to be some fluffy filler so I can take a break and it's going to be a lot like BYA