Boys This Young

27|Phlirty Phil Phuck Me Up

AN: okay literally I feel like Dan in chapter nineteen, my thighs hurt so bad I keep limping, certain positions kill me laying down kill me, and sitting down and squatting is the worst.

I'd rather be fucked in the ass.
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Dan woke up, shifting around slightly as he felt for Phil, but no one was there. He groaned as he sat up, looking around the room to see it empty, but there was water running in the bathroom. He laid back down, looking at the entrance to the bathroom in his room, feeling just so tired. It was raining outside and rain made him more tired.

Finally the water shut off and Phil stepped out of he bathroom, probably having brushed his teeth. He saw Dan and Dan smiled. "Good morning."

Phil pursed his lips and nodded. "Yeah, good morning."

Dan tilted his head slightly at his mood. "Are you okay? You seem moody."

Phil sighed and crawled into bed next to Dan, "Sorry, just tense about something."

Dan smiled again at how nice it felt to lay there with Phil, and Phil layed his hand on Dan's cheek. "Can I ask you something?"

"Yeah."

"You wouldn't ever keep anything from me, right?" Phil asked innocently.

Dan's breath caught in his throat at the question, and the way Phil was flirting, playing with his hair, stroking his cheek.

Phil only did flirty things when he needed to get what he wanted. Dan didn't know what that was but he felt trapped.

Dan blushed. "I...I mean...nothing important."

Phil frowned. "But who decides if it's important?"

"I don't know." Dan said, "But I don't have to tell you everything." and when he looked up at Phil he was stricken with fear. "I-I mean...sorry, I-"

"You tell me what I want to know." Phil said, feeling irritated. "I'm your boyfriend. You understand?"

Dan almost said yes, but then he held his ground. "You're treating me like a kid again, Phil."

Phil then froze. He hated that. He knew if he continued, Dan would consider someone else again and that broke his heart. He knew that he was too controlling. He had to step down before he lost him. "Sorry." Phil whispered.

Dan sighed. "It's alright. Just know that I...I wouldn't keep anything that you need to know from you. You're the first person I'd turn to if there was a problem."

Phil stared at him and then sighed. "Okay. Why do you think that you becoming friends with Arin again after he assaulted you, isn't important?"

Dan's eyes widened. "You know about it?"

"When I was going to come down stairs to bring you up to bed I heard you say it. And honestly I can't believe you'd...oh my god Dan it's probably the stupidest thing you'd ever done."

Dan shook his head. "You can't say that. You don't know the full story and...I am not an idiot."

"Why don't you tell me it then, Dan?"

Dan irritably crossed his arms. "Fine. Arin's a victim of rape from his own father since he was ten years old. Arin has been a victim in many cases of assault as well from him, when he could get away just enough to call it that. And a month ago, I came back from your apartment to find him drunk, and little did I know yet again almost raped by his father that weekend, the one weekend he gathered up the courage to go see his family. I insulted him a lot, I didn't know what he was going through. He in all his drunken anger tried to show me. But he stopped."

Phil's eyes widened as he heard Dan talk, "What?"

Dan's own eyes filled with tears. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you. But it's his secret, Phil. And I'm going to help him. I want him to feel safe. I want him out of his own head."

Phil thought about that for a while but shook his head. "No, Dan, just because he's been through worse doesn't mean what he did to you was okay-"

"It wasn't!" Dan said, "But it's okay with me. As the victim in the situation it's okay with me, because I know Arin, and all he needs is help. I used him and it was wrong, and his home is wrong. But it's my choice to help him, to be around him again. I don't care if it's a bad one, to me it seems right. And life's all about bad choices anyway."

"Daniel-"

"You have no right to be mad at me!" Dan yelled, and Phil again had to clench his fits so hard his nails were cutting him, just to stand down from yelling at him back.

You're not his dad, not his dad, not his dad.

"It's my decision." Dan said, "Mine. I'm going to fix up something I didn't cause, because he's my friend. He hurt me, and he made a terrible mistake. He became what he feared the most at his weakest point. But Phil I...I love him. You have to understand that."

"How can you love the boy who the held you down and tried to touch you? How can you love him?"

"You know, I'm more surprised I still love the boy who held me down for years."

Phil's eyes widened at that as Dan pushed past him and into the bathroom, where he stayed for a long time.

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AN: I promised an update so here it is

I'm so sorry for all the begging for advice shit it's just ugh, whatever if he thinks I'm annoying that's fine, I can't help that I want to be his friend so bad. I don't even know if he hates me but he probably does and I can't help stressing over that. Thank you all for the advice though, I love you guys so much and you were so helpful. I should ask you guys for help more often if you don't mind💕