Boys This Young

31|Boys and Men Are NOT The Same Species

AN: Emani's fave bops rn PT 2

•EVERYTHING BY FRANK OCEAN!! I DID THIS THE LAST TIME BUT MORE INTENSELY I PRESSURE YOU TO LISTEN TO HIM NOW (Listen to the song Nights FIRST if you don't have the time for two albums because it's my fav atm)
•Doves in the Wind and Love Galore by SZA
•Don't Stop Me Now by Queen
•Holding Me Back by Shawn Mendes
•Candy Paint by Post Malone
•Humble and DNA by Kendrick Lamar
•Blessed, We Find Love, and Best Part by Daniel Caesar
•Mess by Jordan Fisher

Okay that's enough of my opinion, but do it !!
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Spring break changed a lot for Dan.

He tried his best not to cling to Phil as much, but it was difficult. Especially since it was coming to an end and they'd go back to not seeing each other every day. But it was Dan who asked for distance in the first place, so this should be what he wanted.

It was not.

It wasn't what he wanted because he didn't like not being next to Phil when he was in a more comfortable mood. It made him feel vulnerable and as though and they were broken up. He'd spent his whole life next to Phil. And he knew Phil would be mad if he did, but he couldn't stand it. Unconsciously at one point in the night, Dan never left his side. Phil didn't react to it when there was people around, but when they weren't, he'd frown.

"Dan," he said calmly, "I thought we talked about this."

"I can still act like an adult and stand next to you." Dan argued. "I promise."

"I'm not doubting that or you it's just...when I'm close to other people, often times you can't. Do you remember back at Cam's store?"

Dan scoffed. "I was jealous!"

"I know but...I want you to be yourself."

"I'm not myself if I'm not all over you." Dan said with a roll of his eyes. "You know that."

Phil pursed his lips. "You were the one that said you didn't need to be around me all the time to function."

"I don't."

"Then-"

"I don't need you around all the time, but I want you around all the time because I love you, Phil. And I know you're conflicted over it, but there are two sides of me. And I know one of them is more needy than the other. But come on, you're just being stubborn if you're going to try to get me to prove I can be distant. Remember last time?"

Phil froze, and he seemed to be thinking. "You have to understand though...how hard it is to keep you happy when I'm so bad at stepping down. You want me to be two people too, and I'm not."

"But you are." Dan said, "You're sweet and kind and just the nicest boy ever. And since you were a kid you've been charming, and that later turned into a sort of alluring part of your personality. You've always been just adorable and sweet. But that's not you, when you're angry. You are not that boy, when the lights are low."

Phil chewed his lip a bit. "I...I know that."

Dan smiled and grabbed his hands. "That's it, Phil! Wake up and smell the goddamn roses! We do this every fucking time. We are perfect. So goddamn perfect it's like we try not to be. You hate being dominant, only because I like distance sometimes, but when I don't, you're dominance fits perfectly with my submission. And when we're like now, when we're just Dan and Phil we're even more perfect because I love everything about you to the moon and back and fuck you mean the world to me, Phil Lester. You want to hide the second part of you, but trust me I love you. I've always loved you. And I don't want to pretend with you. I want to feel comfortable calling you what I want, and touching you how I want and you not feel bad for me giving you control. We are perfect, and you are perfect to me always, because that's just how we fit."