Boys This Young

20|What Goes Up

Dan woke up in Phil's guest bedroom bed, only in his boxers and clinging to Phil like he was all he had left. He really liked being cuddled, it made him feel secure. He looked up at him, snoring softly and only in his underwear was well, so handsome in Dan's opinion.

He remembers how good he felt, every detail of what they did. He remembers that Phil apologizes even when he's right. He remembers that everything is going to be okay.

Dan got up, wincing again once the pain in his ass really reminded him of what went on. He knew he could grow to ignore it, even if made him walk a little funny. Phil said it wouldn't be this bad normally. But he felt wrecked in his lower parts.

Dan brushed his teeth, hating the feeling of them when he woke up, and put on a random shirt on the floor. Usually Arin woke him up early every morning, so it was no surprise he was up before Phil. He liked it actually, here it was peaceful and he had no where to be.

He started to make coffee, knowing that when Phil woke up he'd need some or he wouldn't be able to function properly.

Dan grabbed Phil's favorite mug (secretly because it made him laugh) which was something Paige got him for Christmas. It read, #1 Daddy in cute blue letters and it was probably something you got a man who just had a child but it seemed to have a completely different meaning when Phil held it.

Then Dan grabbed Phil's second favorite mug for himself, which was a personalized mug given to him by Dan's mum. It was a bunch of pictures of them as kids, including a photo taken by Connor and Troye, back when Dan was ten. This one was actually Phil's favorite but he refused to admit it.

He smiled as he looked at all of the pictures, making himself his coffee how he liked it and standing at the island in the kitchen, feeling something weird in his chest.

He couldn't tell if it was nostalgia from looking at the photos are just pure longing for when things were simpler. Or maybe it just felt weird, to see such an innocent version of him and Phil, especially after last night.

"It's rather cold without you in there." Phil greeted, causing Dan to jump from staring at the mug.

Dan looked Phil up and down and shrugged with a sip of his coffee. "Maybe you should put a shirt on."

Phil smirked and snuck behind Dan, grabbing his hips cheekily. "I like it better this way."

Dan smiled. "Are you not even going to tell me good morning?"

Phil rolled his eyes and kissed Dan sweetly. "Good morning, beauitful."

Dan furrowed his eyebrows, "You seem...happy?"

He suspiciously took a drink of his coffee again, as Phil laughed into his shoulder. "Well how could I not be." He started pressing kisses to Dan's neck slowly. "I have the most beautiful boyfriend in the world."

Dan shook his head. "You're really happy, wow."

"Do you want to know the truth?" Phil asked, resting his head on his shoulder with his arms wrapped around him. Dan thought it cute how he was cuddling him but he never did this normally. What was up with him?

"Yeah." Dan said, sipping his coffee as Phil sighed. Goddamn this was some good coffee.

"I was just really scared about...I don't know I guess I've been scared about everything with you when we started dating. I was scared of fighting, I was scared of cheating, I was scared of having sex with you since...I don't know, everybody I'd ever done I didn't care about as much. But now...it's all happened and it was at once. This past month or so has just been everything I was terrified of ever happening, except...it's over. It was just a crack in the sidewalk. And I guess I'm happy because...you stayed with me."