Boys This Young

18|Punish The Weak

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Phil was angry.

For days until the weekend, he ignored all of Dan's calls, and he just sat in his house feeling angry, angry, angry.

There was a part of himself that he buried away. The part of him that just craved control like no other. The part of him that thrived off dominance. The part of him that was surfacing with every passing hour.

He was infuriated with Dan, for even touching someone else. He wanted to show him, exactly what he was missing out on, exactly what he was capable of. He wanted to show him what is like to he punished when he acted out like that.

He wanted to hurt Arin, for touching his Dan. He was just wallowing in his anger and frustration for too long. He was going to change for Dan and he hurt him.

Phil could only sigh at his own thoughts. He didn't really want to hurt Arin. Violence was never the answer. But he was so angry at Dan for letting someone else touch him. He just felt terrible and full of rage, which was worse than being sad. Because he wanted to throw something against a wall, and scream. And it felt like it would be easier if he was crying.

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"Phil?" Dan questioned, surprised to see him when he opened his door, standing there and looking hurt. Very hurt. "Oh my god, Phil-" Dan tried to hug him but Phil pushed him away angrily. "I...I can't believe you."

He saw Arin who looked shocked in the back, just frozen in place. It made him madder. With one quick movement, Phil had stormed towards him and punched him right in the face as hard as he could. When Phil was in one of these moods, he became a lot stronger.

Arin fell back with a crash, hitting the floor and holding his face in pain. "Fuck."

"Phil!" Dan said, pulling him back. "What the fuck are you doing?"

"He deserved that." Phil said, turning away and facing Dan with fire dancing behind his eyes. "But honestly, you kind of deserve worse."

Dan frowned. "Phil...I'm so sorry, I love you, I promise. It didn't mean anything-"

"To you!" Phil shouted. "It didn't mean anything to you because you don't care! You're don't care about who you use! Like Arin, or Connor when you tried to get him not to tell me! You don't care about who gets dragged in, you just want to be happy for you, not caring who the fuck isn't just because you are!"

"That's not true!" Dan said, "I...I wanted Arin to be happy so I kissed him, and I tried to be close. But I kept forgetting about how I can't make Arin happy and you happy, and have myself be happy! Because Arin wants me and you want me and I want you but I want Arin to be happy and it just doesn't work and it never will and I'm admitting that now! You know what my problem is? I just want everyone to be happy!"

"Well look how well that turned out." Phil said, "I...I love you, Dan, how could cheat on me?"

"I wasn't thinking about how you're all I'm ever going to want!" Dan cried, "I kept having these thoughts, like, I need to love outside of Phil. Why am I so attached to Phil? I just...I'd never felt anything that wasn't your lips. And I thought...I thought I could get over everything if I just kissed Arin, but I wouldn't stop thinking of you. And I can't even blame it on the fact that you weren't around because you tried to be, I was just so angry. So you have every right to hate me, Phil, but if you're going to hit anyone, hit me."

"I will." Phil said grabbing Dan by the collar and watching as his eyes widened. "I will hurt you, like you hurt me. Actions have consequences, Dan, I hope you know that. And if you don't want to be treated like youmre five, then I'll treat you just like an adult, Daniel."

Dan gulped, "W-What are you going to do?"

Phil only shook his head, and dropped Dan, glaring at Arin. "I wanna talk to you." he said.

Arin nodded, and Phil turned back to Dan with an eyebrow raised. "Out."

"But...I-"

"Out. I want to talk to Arin in private." Phil said, and Dan nodded with his head down, walking out gloomily and closing the door behind him.

"I thought we talked about this." Phil said, crossing his arms. "You said you'd watch out for him. You said you wouldn't touch him."

"I know." Arin said, "I'm sorry I just...you know that I...have feelings for him, Phil. When he kissed me I didn't know how to say no. I promise, it won't happen again."

"Really? Because it sounds like you don't know your boundaries. And I may just forget mine as well."

"Phil, don't take this the wrong way, but he came onto me. You're projecting your anger in the wrong place. I feel bad, and you know that."

Phil nodded, "Yeah, I know. I know, I know. Was he drunk, at least?"

"Very."

Phil sighed and shook his head. "Does he even love me?"

Arin put his hand on his shoulder. "More than he can take."

Phil felt tears in his eyes. "Then why would he throw away everything like that?"

"He was confused." Arin said, "But he...he knew he was in the wrong as soon as he woke up the next morning. He knew Connor would tell you and he was so scared of breaking up with you he couldn't even speak. And he's been crying every night, terrified of when you'd confront on him. And he literally stares at the phone for hours wanting you to return his calls. He loves you, Phil, and he feels so bad."

"Are you just saying that?" Phil asked, "To get me to take him back so he can be happy?"

Arin shook his head. "No. It hurts me that he's with you."

Phil thought for a long time and then he nodded at him. "I'm sorry for punching you in the face."

Arin chuckled. "It's okay, I deserved it."

"Please, protect him." Phil said, "I...I'm trusting you."

"I swear I won't touch him." Arin said, "He's yours."

When Phil opened the door Dan was standing there nervously, not meeting his eyes. "Let's go." Phil said.

"Wait, what?" Dan said, "What do you mean?"

"You're coming with me, now." Phil said, crossing his arms and waiting for Dan to try to protest.

Dan nodded, "Can I-"

"No, come on." Phil said, "You lost your privilege to have a say in anything, Daniel."

Phil only called him Daniel when he was frustrated and angry, or...Dan didn't know. Sometimes he called him it as a joke, but now he knew Phil wasn't in the the mood for jokes.

Dan gulped as he nodded. What exactly what Phil going to do?

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AN: I'll leave that up to you

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