Case Closed (Hariana | H.S & A.G)

Part 5: One Door Shut

"Oh my gosh Ariana! Are you okay? What the hell happened?" I hear Amy Schumer, my best friend, exclaim as I open the door to let her into my apartment. It's been two days since Ricky and I fought. I haven't seen him since, I haven't seen anyone since then. I haven't told anyone either but I need to and Amy is the only one I could think of talking to. Plus, I don't want to go outside with this big bruise on my face and I'm scared Ricky will try and come back here for some of his stuff or to talk or something.

"It's a long story we should probably sit down" I say after giving her a quick hug. The bruise on my face has swelled up and it's nearly impossible to hide. Thankfully SNL is on break for the summer and won't be back for another couple of months giving me plenty of time to recover physically and hopefully even mentally.

"Did someone do this to you?" Amy asks clearly scared and worried for me which I get. I sit cross-legged on my couch as she sits beside me. I try to build up the courage to admit what happened but it's harder than I could have ever imagined.

"Sorry, I don't mean to leave you in suspense it's just- I haven't said it out loud before" I admit. My voice cracks which I didn't expect but Amy just nods her head understandingly, she's not gonna judge me. "Ricky. He did this, two nights ago actually. We got in some argument, some stupid argument! And uhmm grabbed me by the wrists and he dug his nails into me so I couldn't leave and I tried to elbow him in the chest which got him even more angry and within seconds I remember laying on the ground after he punches me in the face" I say trying to hold back tears.

"Oh my gosh Ari, I'm so sorry. It's okay, it's gonna be okay, I'm here for you. And I promise he's never gonna come near you ever again, I promise" Amy exclaims as she wraps her arms around me. I know she's just trying to comfort me but I really needed to hear that right now. I also know even if Amy's words are sort of meaningless, her actions have always shown me that she's got my back and I really need someone right now and I'm so thankful to have Amy in my life, this is so embarrassing and I can't imagine telling this to anyone else, ever.

"I feel so stupid too, I mean I saw my dad being abusive with my mom promised myself I'd never let that happen to me and here I am. I never even thought about it" I admit. This whole situation has brought up a lot of dark memories from my childhood and it hurts. Not only that it's now officially part of my present day life but also because my mom never should have experienced it and now I know first hand how much it sucks and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone.

"You're not stupid Ari! No one could have saw this coming. But the good thing is you got out! Your mom would be so proud, this shows how strong you are! How much you've learned from her. She would be so proud and so thankful, if it weren't for the past who knows how long you would've stayed with him. You could have forgiven him, tried to make it work, but you know better! And it's because of her, this just goes to show, even though she's not here she still has such a positive impact on your life" Amy says with reference to my mom. I miss her so much, she died less than a year ago and it still hurts like crazy to think about. I'm glad Amy's met her, I'm glad she was able to get to know her and see the strength that she had, it means so much.

"Thanks. It means a lot. I just- I don't understand. How did both me and my mom both end up with someone abusive? Like is it in my DNA to find someone so destructive? I thought I was better than this" I sigh, after everything that's happened I just feel like all my wisdom and knowledge about relationships has been flushed down the toilet.

"You couldn't have predicted this. I've met Ricky before and I couldn't have even predicted this. I mean I probably would've thought you were joking if you told me over the phone or something" Amy replies.

"I mean I messed up something so good, and so pure with Harry. Why couldn't I have just stayed with him? It's like I had a problem with being treated so respectfully" I rant.