Final Nightmare

14. Constant Reminders

Chris

Watching the love of your life walk out on you can be one of the most painful experiences ever. The way Zari looked at me with such disappointment, and regret made the heart that I had for her feel empty. This time I really lost her. I lost the one thing that is more important to a man than anything in this word; his wife, and their kids. All because of what I've done. If I could go back in time and made sure known of this happened, our lives would be so perfect now.

To hear that Zari won't be a part of our lives hurts me the most. She's my ride or die. Even when I did fuck up back then, she stayed by my side. And I've treated her so badly through the years, all because I couldn't let one pussy go. I don't know what it was about Felisha that had me running to her though. I damn sure didn't love her, her pussy was nowhere as good as Z one, and she wasn't wifey material. She never held me down the way Z did, she never did any of that. Zari did all that, but now I'm really losing her. What am I going to do without her in my life?

I looked over to her side of the bed and sighed. It's was empty. Once again.

I grabbed her wedding ring and rolled it in between my fingers. The bedroom door opened, but I kept my head down. I didn't want to be bothered by anyone.

"You can't be cooped up in this room forever you know. It's been a little over a week."

I felt the bed dipped at the edge and I glanced up to see that Cairo was there. His face was unreadable, and it made me feel ten times worse.

"You don't know how I feel," I ran my hands down my face and leaned my head against the headboard.

"You right, I don't know how you feel, but staying in this room won't make you feel any better," Cairo laid back on the bed with his hands behind his head.

"You know Darrin wants to kill you right?"

"I know. I can't even walk pass the man without him staring at me with fire in his eyes."

"Well how would you feel if you were in his shoes? Shit, I still want to hurt you myself, but what's hurting you going to do? What's done is done and nothing can be changed," Cairo shrugged.

I bit on my bottom lip and continued to play with the ring.

"Have you heard from her?"

"Yes, Darrin and I just left from talking to her."

"And you didn't tell me about it?" I arched my brow.

"Nope, because we knew you were going to try to come just to see her, and we all know that was not going to be pretty."

"That's still my wife Cairo what the fuck?" I slammed my hand down in the bed and all he did was stare at me.

"You don't have a wife anymore. That's where you keep fucking up at," He pointed two of his fingers at me and shook his head.

"Why did you both meet up with her anyway?"

"Well I went to go support Darrin since you know, she's going to die-"

"You think I constantly want to hear that shit Cairo? I know she's going to die! And it's because of me! I don't need to hear that shit repeatedly," I snapped on him. I don't need a constant reminder about it.

"One, don't yell at me. Two, yell at me again I'm going to bust your head in. Three, how the fuck you think Darrin feel? That's his little sister. Fuck a husband that's his own flesh and blood that's going to die because of what you did, bitch boy," Cairo sat up and stood to his feet.