Relief (Completed).

Chapter 1 of Part 2.

“Are you sure with that? I thought you planned to hide until the baby comes?” Kelly asked me.

“I must admit, this is really a hard decision to make. I doubled and tripled my thinking over it. I prayed a lot for it. But God gave me a sign that served as my go signal. I must go. I must not waste His trust in me.” I told them.

“We understand. I’m sure your mother would be relieved in this.” Aunt Veronica said.

“But what if mother doesn’t accept me? That’s my biggest fear. But still, I’m readying myself for the rejection.” I confided.

“I don’t think she’ll reject you. You’re her only child. She loves you more than you can imagine. She’ll give anything to you.”

“I know that. But I also know how my mother gets when she’s angry. I’m also afraid of making her angry. I’m worried that she’ll get sick or something.”

“Jade, this is something I know she can’t leave you with your own. I mean, she’s a mother. She’ll understand you. Besides, she knows your situation. She’s been through that.”

It’s true. I’m also a product of an unwanted pregnancy, so my mother constantly reminds me to be careful, not to have boyfriends until I’m eighteen, that kind of stuff. So when I learned that I’m pregnant, I ran away. I’m so ashamed to my mother.

“Jade, just stop worrying. It will be bad for you and your baby because of too much stress. Everything will be fine. And even if she won’t accept you, you still have us. Me, Aunt Veronica, and your friends. We’ll help you through this. We won’t leave you.” Kelly promised me.

I asked Kelly for a private moment. I wanted to talk to her about something.

“Kelly, I know I’ve caused you much trouble, but can I ask you another favour?” I said.

“Oh Jade, you never caused me trouble. I’m always glad to help you. I’m your friend, and besides, I learned from you a lot through this.” She said.

“Thank you for that.”

“Oh, by the way, what is it?”

“Uhm. I wish to let Daniel know this. About my plan of coming back. You have communications with him, right?”

“Yes, but why all of a sudden? Why Daniel?”

“I know you’d be surprised with this, but see..” I explained to her everything. I let her read the paper, and I told her all my guilt and agony regarding Daniel’s pain. While explaining, I was back in crying.

“And Kelly, I’m ready to return his love now.” I confessed to her.

“Are you sure? Do you really feel that or it’s just your guilt eating you?”

“No. I really feel this way. I thought that first, though. About my guilt eating me and everything. But when I think about Daniel, I just keep on missing him. And then, one day, it just hit me. This is not pity, this is not conscience. This is love. I am in love with Daniel now.” I blushed.

“But what about Carl?” Kelly asked.

“Oh, who cares about a bastard bitch promising me, then running away from his responsibility? Kidding. I don’t know, but I don’t love him anymore. All the love I had for him were dominated by all the frustrations he brought me in.” I told her.

“I understand. But what if he’ll demand of the baby?”

“We can both live without him. I am already capable of that. See? I can be happy without him. I realized he’s not really the one. I can’t let him see our child until all my anger for him dissolves. I cannot be perfectly happy with that.”

“But he deserves to see his child, too.”

“I know, but I would want to first be healed from all these pains and agonies. I would want to be healthy inside and out for my baby.”

“Oh, I see. But how can I help you with Daniel?” She said.

“Can you talk to him about my plan? Can you tell everything to him?” I asked.

“Why don’t you do it? I think he’ll be happier if you’re the one bringing him the news.”

“I don’t know if I already can. I need to ready myself for him, and I want him to be ready for me, too.”

“But, I want you to be on your own this time. This is a private business of yours and—“

“A private business of mine that I trust in you. I trust in you, Kelly.”

“Well, thank you for that and I trust in you, too. I trust you that you could do this. I mean, it’s not that I don’t want to do this for you, but I think it’s better for you and him to talk personally and privately.”

“Oh. I’ll think about it. As I said, I need to ready myself.”

“You better be. There is more you need to face, not just Daniel.”