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#99 - Your Suicide Letter To Him

#99 - Your Suicide Letter To Him

Harry:

My dearest Haz,

If you’re reading this, that means you must have found me. I’m sorry it had to come to this. I didn’t want it to but… I know it’s for the best. As hard as it is to leave you, I just can’t take it anymore. I’m never going to forget the memories we made Harry, those three years of being together were the best years if my life. And when you proposed… God that was the best day of my life. And I said yes because I knew… I just knew you were the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Our wedding would’ve been beautiful. To see you all dressed up with that big white smile of yours, your dimples showing. I’m going to miss that… I can just see myself tripping and falling flat on my face as I walk up the aisle. But you would’ve been there to get me back on my feet… Just like you always did. Harry, you’re going to be home soon, so I have to wrap this up if I’m going to have enough time… Harry, the love of my life. I am going to miss you so much. Please don’t forget me okay? I love you beautiful boy.

Your kitten, (Y/N)

Liam:

Hi Liam,

Writing this is harder than I thought it would be. To think that this is my final goodbye to you… But, it has to be done. I want to be happy. That doesn’t mean I wasn’t happy with you. I was absolutely happy with you. You were the only person who could get me smile when I was upset. You got me through my mother’s funeral, the fan hate. You got me through everything. Except this thing that I’ve been hiding from you for a long while. And I’m sorry, but I couldn’t bother you with it. Anyways, Liam, I hope you know that I will never forget you. You will always be the love of my life. Even in death. We’ll meet again someday. But until then, I want you to live a long happy life. Find someone who you’ll love with everything and treat her properly. But make sure she treats you right to. You deserve nothing but the best and I just didn’t do that for you.

I’m sorry Liam, I love you with everything, (Y/N)

Niall:

My perfect prince,

So you found the letter huh? Well, honestly I don’t really know what to write. It’s hard to put these kind of emotions on paper. It’s also hard to process that these will be the last words I ever give to you. I just want you to know that I’m going peacefully. Just like falling asleep. Only I won’t be waking up. I also want you to remember that I love you Niall. More than anything in this world. The four years we were together were the happiest. You made my final years the best possible. I know this seems surprising. But I’ve been fighting this internal battle for a while now. And no one can help me anymore. I’m so sorry. You will always be my knight in shining armour Niall.

Love your princess, (Y/N)

Zayn:

Zayn…

I’m already crying and I haven’t even really started the letter. I just think you deserve a goodbye. It would be even worse if I didn’t leave anything for you at all. I don’t want you to be upset. Please. You deserve to be happy, and I wasn’t enough to give you that. I know I wasn’t. I know you kept telling me I made you the “happiest man alive”, but Zayn, I was nothing but a burden. You deserve so much better and I deserve nothing. I can’t even believe you chose to be with me in the first place. I mean, there are so many beautiful women out there for you Zayn and I’m sure one of them will make you much happier. But if I can ask one thing of you, is to never forget how much I loved you. God Zayn, my heart was yours from the minute we met. And it always will be. I love you Zayn, I love you so much.

Forever and always, (Y/N)

Louis:

My Lou Bear,

My little goofball you are. You always had that special way of bringing. a smile to my face. All your little tricks. I’m going to miss them. The way you would do a little dance or tell those cheesy little jokes. They were so awful, that was what made them funny and of course, never failed to put a smile on my face. God Lou… Leaving you is the hardest thing I could ever do. And you may be asking yourself, “Then why did you do it?” But I do have reasons Lou… I just couldn’t deal with my parents anymore. Every day Louis, I would get a call or text from my mom and none of it was positive. The black eye I had that I said was from an accident? It was a lie. My dad… you didn’t know. I just couldn’t deal with them anymore. Please don’t blame yourself for this though, none of it was your fault. At all. If anything you were the one thing I fought to live for. 100% honest Lou. You just sent me a text telling me you loved me. I love you too Louis. So much. You’re going to be home soon, so I should go… I’m sorry sweetheart.

Goodbye my love, (Y/N)