The Game Plan (Completed) [R-18]

15 : His Thoughts

His thoughts

Code just sat on the edge of the bed. His fingers was grasping his hair while he bowed his head as if he just had the worst problem in the world.

" Kailan pa Calli. When was the first time you felt it" Pakuway tanong niya sa akin.

" Mat-matagal na pero hindi ko alam na-" I started telling him but he interrupted.

" Why the hell didn't you tell me Calli. I should have known it before. Damn it Calli. Tanginang sakit iyan. Sa lahat ng puwedeng kumalaban sa akin, sakit pa talaga. You have something I cannot even fight Calli. Something I cannot even pay for. If only I can buy life, I'll do it. But damn it Callista, I don't want to loose you" He said to me. His voice held so much emotions.

" Not now, Calli. Not ever" Halos madurog ang puso sa nakikita ko

He looks so vulnerable right now. Na para bang hindi niya alam ang gagawin niya.

" You'll undergo medications, Calli. Either you want it or not. I'll bring you to the best doctors in the world" He said with full determination. Tumayo siya mula sa pagkakaupo niya sa kama bago siya naglakad papunta sa gawi ko. Lumuhod siya sa harapan ko bago siya muling nagsalita

" My Hera, come on. Pack your things. I'll do everything to get you well." He almost whispered.

Umiling ako.

I saw how he clenched his fist the moment I didn't nod.

" I'm begging you, Calli. You want me to beg for it? Gagawin ko. Come on Calli. Don't make this hard for the both of us and just agree to what I want for us." He said.

" If I'll die, then be it so, Code. I might as well live my remaining days with my family. Code, I am in the terminal stage already. Malabo ng gagaling pa ako. Medications will only extend my life but it will not bring me back my health" I told him. Umiling naman agad siya bago niya ako sinagot. I tried making myself believe that I am strong. That I can do it.

" Bullshit Calli!" He whispered

" Huwag ka namang mang-iwan. Tangina naman Calli. I am no Code without you. Alam mo iyan. Come on Calli. I damn know it's scarring you but it scares me more. It scares the shit out of me. We'll do it together. I'll be with you every step of the way. Just please, just please let me do what I want to do." Pagmamakaawa niyang saad sa akin.

" Code, I am scared." I broke down into tears. Iyun ang totoo. I am scared that I might not live that long anymore. That I won't even last a year.

I am scared of dying. I am scared of my life.

I am scared of the pain

Natatakot ako.

All I am feeling right now is fear.

Fear of pain

Fear of struggles

Fear of medications

Fear of death.

" And I fear loosing you Calli." He hugged me. His hug was so tight. He poured all his emotions on the hug we were sharing.

" Tangina Calli, kung lalaki lang ang puwede kong maging karibal sa 'yo magagawan ko pa ng madaming paraan. If only I can kill death, I will. But death will kill me the moment you leave me Calli. So don't think of leaving me" He said before kissing me. I kissed him back. We poured all emotions in the kiss we are sharing

" We'll use my private plane. You pack your things. We'll fly tonight" He said with authority.

Tonight