Refused

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 I stand In the middle of the room, More confused than I've ever been in my whole life.

Him. Ryan.

The words feel eerie on my tongue, foreign even. I haven't said that in a long time. Why did I say the one thing that was on my mind? Because. I'm stupid. I'm dumb, I'm clueless. Did I forget that Ryan is gone? Permanently..

The green gaze skims over me and I feel a frown forming.

"No.. " I say Sure of myself.

"No.. I made a mistake. I didn't mean to say that.... " I mutter and His face falls a fraction.

"You aren't him.. " I  Say, Reassuring myself more than him.

Why did I say that...My brow furrows and I fidget.

He shakes his foot and Looks over to the wall. "It is me Emma." I hear him say ever so faintly. I laugh, bitter almost. "Yea, and I'm God himself."

He snaps his head towards me, His eyes turning back to that inhumanly green color again, Leaving any resemblance of my friend that I lost years ago To fade away. "I'm not lying here. And I don't find it particularly funny that you're laughing like that." He says growling.

"My bad, I just don't like people who lie In order to earn my trust or get close to me." I say slightly irritated. How the fuck dare he come in here and suddenly claim he's my Best friend that I lost nearly eight years ago. It's not even funny, I Missed him so much and here this prick is, playing with my emotions. He reminded me of the one person who truly gave a shit about me and Now I feel like curling up in a ball and sobbing my heart out.

He Clenches his jaw and I notice his fists, as they curl up and then relax. "Why would I lie to you? Answer that for me." He says calmly, but I can see the fierce anger in his eyes. Why the hell is he so fed up, Most importantly, What the hell is he so fed up about? I'm the one who should be fed up ! He's fucking lying to me! He's using something against me and I don't like how he's trying to play as my lost friend. Its sick and Cruel.

"Umm let me guess, Because you're Cruel and don't care about anybody but yourself? Yeah, I think that's it." I snap.

He sighs heavily and runs a hand through his messy hair.

"And plus, If you're really trying to play As Ryan, Then you should know He's way more civilized than you, Sorry to inform you. " I say crossing my arms.

" Fuck, Em. You're still stupid and clueless. Maybe I fucking changed okay? Not everybody can stay 100 percent goody two shoes like yourself you self centered bitch!" He hisses.

I roll my eyes. "Nice try using first person, But that didn't make me believe you any more. Are you done roleplaying? I don't like Frauds." I Say scowling.

"You know what? You want proof, Here goes your goddamn proof. " He growls and turns around going up the stairs.

I Sigh and rub my eyes. This whole Lie is going a bit too far. And I don't like it at all. It's reminding me too much of those time I spent with Ryan. He is not Ryan and I know that for a fact. Ryan was nice, caring. He was a tease, Yeah, and he was occasionally a jerk, but he was never...Cruel..Evil or selfish this badly. But His green eyes.. I shake my head. I need to stop thinking, It's bad for me. Just forget the whole thing. Its better that way. It's all better to forget all of this.

But it seems Leon hasn't gave up when he comes back down the stairs, with a box in his hand.

He glances at me and I sigh, "Wow. Its a box. I totally believe you now." I grumble to myself, So he doesn't hear. He clears his throat and opens the wooden box to reveal two necklaces.

He takes one out and lets it dangle by his fingers, The charm twirling around. I listen to his low voice as I Watch the golden chain Gently sway back and forth.

" I'd bought it for your fourteenth birthday, And I bought me one too.. They're both half golden teardrops with our initials in it. When you told me you had to leave, You shoved your necklace back in my hands, And refused to leave with it. "

Flashback

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"Emma, Take it! " He hissed Placing it in my hand.

I look down at the beautiful Golden chain and feel my blood run cold.

"I- I cant, Ryan! I cant take it! It's too much.. When I leave here forever, I don't want to remember how much it hurt to say goodbye.. I don't want a constant reminder of that. I'm sorry." I Say, my voice breaking at the edges.

He stares at me His eyes glossy and confused as I shove the necklace back in his hands. Not being able to control the feelings in my chest I grab a chunk of his shirt and pull him close, Slamming our lips together. I pull myself off of him and back away, watching his expression sadden, Then I turn and run. I don't know where. I just run as tears threaten to spill over.

But when I reach the end of the street, I turn around to glance at Ryan one last time.

But He's gone.

My heart stops, and I finally let the tears go free.

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End of flashback

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I stare at the floor.

"Do you believe me now?" He says.

I swallow. "No." I mumble.

"You know what? Don't believe me. I don't give a shit!"

He throws the box across the room, where it smashes against the wall, Pieces of wood scattering along the floor. He Glares at me before turning and walking away. I hear The door slam and I flinch at the Angry gesture. I bite my lip and flop down on the cold floor.

So I'm guessing this is going to be my new room For now. I drop my head in my hands and Close my eyes. Great.

I stand back up and Turn around, facing the blank room. My eyes roam around until they settle on the broken box and the necklaces sprawled across the floor. I trudge over to them and pick them up, Feeling the coldness of them in my palm. I bring the necklaces up to my face, and surely, Their they are, Almost as If new and polished. Our initials. Ryan's and mine. I suck in a breathe and let my body tremble and quake. 

I clutch the necklaces to my chest, This time promising to keep them. As I continuously Mumble my promise to the world, I feel Everything That I left with Ryan that day come back. My feelings for him, The Heartache I went through. My Hurting. My Tears.

Does the world expect me to go through life Breaking, Rotting and dyeing inside? I guess everything's against me when I was expecting everything to be on my side, But now I'm the bad guy.

Maybe One day I'll find my own heaven, my own paradise even?

Maybe..

A/N

Boo. How'd you like it? Comment, rate and share c; And Also Give the person nearest to you a hug. Because people like hugs, and it makes them feel better, Hmm. :/ Maybe Emma needs a hug... o.o

                Hugs and cherry kisses<3

 

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