What happens when you move

What happens when you move (Chapter 23)

Chapter 23

            “It’s going to be ok.” I’ve been saying this for the past hour.

            Nothing’s changed. We’re still lying on the floor of his bedroom and Zack still has his hands over his face.

            “Will you stop saying that!” He yelled into his hands. It took me a second to get over the fact that he had just yelled at me but I pushed that pain away. I knew he didn’t really mean the anger behind the words. He was just upset, I understood that.

            “I’m sorry.” I said, again. I didn’t know what else to say to him.

            “Stop saying that too.” He yelled again.

            I kept silent this time. I hate that he’s getting angry with me. Just because I have been in his position before doesn’t mean I know the perfect things to say or the perfect way to act. I’m just as hurt as he is. I might have just met his Grandpa yesterday but that didn’t mean that losing him didn’t hurt me too.

            I started crying again. I thought I had run out of tears a while ago but apparently I hadn’t. His Grandpa was such a sweet man. He knew that Zack and I had something special. He thought we were going to get married. We could end up getting married but he will never know for sure. Actually he will know. I know he is looking down on Zack making sure he’s ok.

            “He loved you so much Zack. I could tell that in just the little time I spent with him.” I assured him while rubbing the back of his hand.

            “I know.” He said. I could still hear the hurt in his voice. “You know he loved you too. He might have just met you but he loved you. He told me he thought you were a very special girl.” I could hear a smile forming as he was telling me this.

            “Can you please take your hands off your face? I want to see your face.” I had asked this before and he told me no but this time he took his hands away from his face. “Thank you.”

            “You know he told me that he hopes I start straightening up and treating women right.” He looked at me and I saw an emotion on his face that I hadn’t seen before. I didn’t know what it was. “I had no idea he knew I was such a jerk.”

            “You’re not a jerk Zack.” I interrupted.

            “But I am. I used to use woman like they were trash bags. Just used them and threw them away. I never thought about how they felt. I didn’t care.”

            “That’s the thing Zack. You used to use woman. You don’t anymore. Don’t beat yourself up about the past. That’s why it is in the past. You can’t change it but you can learn from it.” Didn’t I know that? I couldn’t change my past but I learned from it.

            “He said that if I didn’t straighten up I was going to lose you and never find anyone close to you.” He said and turned his head so he was looking into my eyes. “Courtney he was right. If I ever lost you I don’t know what I would do. I would never find someone even remotely close to you. Nobody would compare to how special you are to me.”

            I couldn’t stop the huge smile forming across my face. I’ve been getting a lot of these romantic scenes lately. It made me happy to know how much he really cared about me.

            “You know my Grandpa use to tell me when I was little that one day I’d find that one girl that would change everything. And I always use to just blow off what he said because I thought that if there was ever a girl that changed me I wouldn’t like her. I wanted to just be myself not be changed into someone else. But Courtney you’ve changed me and I am so grateful for it.” Zack said as he got up off the floor.