Surviving me. Becomming my own friend

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4/14/14

If you read my somewhat real book, She Kisses Frogs (minus a lot of the sex) (ok most) journey from a failed marriage to finding myself, you know I have lived for men. I have been what they want me to be. I have been at their beckon call. I have served the emotional needs of everyone but me.. I have been what I thought I needed because I have never felt worthy of love. I never felt pretty or sexy. (I didn't say I wasn't good at sex) Just that I thought that sex was all any man ever wanted from me.

Much like in the book She Kisses Frogs I have been overweight (full figured) my whole entire life. I am tired of being over-weight. I am tired of not feeling sexy (once again separate from sexual skill set). So I started a journey in January 2014 I have had a setback. Due to my own self destructive behaviors. I am gearing up to get back on the horse and decided to journal it as well.

I have hit an all time high weight of 228 and wearing a size 16w-18. I have eaten some shit pie in my life but never do I play victim. I thrive anytime I can overcome the very thing that provokes the response "you cant do that". Are you kidding me I eat that cliché for breakfast.

So as I finish one book I shall begin another. I don't want the focus to be on "FAT PEOPLE" or BBW I want it to be real feelings, real obstacles, real goals met, and above all REAL HONEST.

Thank you for following my journey.

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